Hellothisismydiary! (:

Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni :)

2012-01-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hello, it has been a helluva week :) Self-declared holiday since Friday weeee. :) Chinese new year has been a good time of catching up, thinking & bonding. Been rather queasy tho.

Realized two things i dislike, 1) Ill-mannered people. 2) $_$.
My babyboy. :) Met a few other cute dogs this CNY hehe :)

20Jan: Surprised Huims, :)
Class girls.
Intended to shop after, but i accidentally napped at home & ended up late, :( slacked at bugis & visited Nicole at KK hospital. :) Someone as the same ailment as me, aw!

21Jan: XYQ steamboat, at church! :)

Had a fruitful shpng trip w Candice & Leela after, phewwww.!
Met Xueting & Ken again for 2nd round of shopping. :) Had SoupSpoon (Velvety mushroom!!!!!!!!) & went Chambers :)

22Jan, missed service :( Met Bomao for lunch :) Had lotsof extra time so we watched "We not naughty" :) Pretty draggy/sad/relatable movie, 3.5/5? :)
Reunion dinner, steamboat again weeee :)

23Jan, home all day because everyone came to bainian instead. :) Family, relatives, friends visited all day :) So shiok cause no need leave my house at all hehe

24Jan, visiting day (aww)! :) Yishun to visit my mother's side houses! :) Starbucks & BukitPanjang to visit Sam. :)

Sent Nicole to her aunt's house, before mtg the Atlas peeps @ tamp, Carls Jr!! :)

Town w Bomao & his cousin :)

25Jan, KTPH for my appt, & to check gramps out of the hospital. :) Really love the place & food, yummmmmmmie! Yet i really don't want to return back for the next appt :( because i think doctors are pretty useless..
Ruth treated Celestine & I to lunch @ HKcafe weeee loveya. :)

Hougang to visit Xueting QSD :) Met Spangz for reunion dinner, :)

26 Jan, back to school ;)
My vision board! Scraped this up in the period before Chrystal, so proud of myself k :) It's supposed to represent the desires of one's heart? But i think mine is more of random :)
Sengkang to visit Nicole & tutor her Amath :) Sushi, donuts & jelly, plus a princess dog. :) Kenny got lost both on the way there & back ._.

27Jan, school school school. Teachers have been waking me up in every class & asking why i'm perpetually tired. Need to stop going out on weekdays. :(

ODAC lou hei tgt. :)

BEEF PROSPERITY 141, SHIOK AHHHHH. :)
After ODAC we played ball from like 5-9!! Really enjoyed basketball even tho quite embarrassing because i'm not a good player plus scared of strangers, :(

Joel's house to bainian & chill :)

REALLY BTH ALR, everyday sleep a few hours, or not at all. NEED TO HIBERNATE

Lost

2012-01-19T21:12:00.003+08:00

For the first time in my 18 years, I don't know what the hell is going on in life.

I feel so lost, i just cruise from day to day, school play rot sleep. I've lost joy in everything when i used to find it in everything. I've lost my purpose, i've lost my visions. I've lost who i am.

There's so much hurt disappointment fear insecurities sadness grieve regret hate anger disgust, leading to all the reluctance in me.

I don't want to do this, I don't want to be that. I don't know what i want.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what i ought to do. I don't know where i belong to.

All my life the only person i ever trusted & depended on was God. But what happens when I don't anymore...?

All those crazy things we did

2012-01-15T19:32:00.005+08:00

WAAAADDUP. :) So school has started, & it's back to hell. :)

Last weekend was spent w churchies! :) Service, meals, dance, LAN.. :) Was really nervous & scared for school. :(

First day of school was pretty awkward. Haven't seen everyone for months. NEX w the class girls to feast & cut hair. :)
Yonghao's 18th celeb w breakfclique at night. :)
HappyBirthdayyy. Legal alr, no need kena caught for underage club :b Even tho you always complain i treat you like sai, but i really do love you and treasure you as my lifelong friend ;)
The rest of the weekdays were pretty mundane other than dance & open house. :)

Phobos won second, so damn proud of us ;)
I'ma man ;)
WEEKEND! :) Everyday kayak 930-530. Thus i couldn't attend either services :( But managed to meet churchies for dinner, & 团圆饭 with ODACians. :)
Totally love the seaside, :) & kayaking was really fun (& dangerous).

The best parts:

1) Floating around in our lifejackets

2) Showering w a hose

3) Surfing on the relatively larger waves

:D :D :D

Reminds me of Weilun's song, Paddle paddle paddle for our lives & Paddle paddle paddle till we die :)
We feasted like beasts esp Kaifeng, heheh shiokkkkzx man.

Queued freaking long for this, but totally worth it :)

Feeling more & more antisocial each day... The world is so damn superficial.

Memories supposed to fade, what's wrong with my heart?

2012-01-06T21:32:00.009+08:00

Promised my parents & i from Jan1:

1) Start studying
2) Won't go out to play
3) Will reach home before 12mn.

I had already broken all 3 within the first week.. :( Spell disappointment.

03Jan,

Love sparkles ;)

04Jan, Dance! :) After 2months i finally went to practise. It was quite fun cause we learnt sth new & i kinda missed everyone! :) Got to meet some of my dear classmates also :)

Daiso w Joy & 17 Chefs w Yonghao! :)

05Jan,
Batam w Kahho & Wenyi!
Not much pictures because i forgot to bring my SD card, :( & i didn't dare to take out my dslr there anyway. The surroundings didn't look the least bit safe.
I didn't buy anything, yet we spent $100+!!!! :O

Ate alot alot alot alot!!!! :) The food's cheap & yummmmy. Had a massage too :)

Am i the only one who's living in the past .. ? Close friends who've drifted, people i don't even talk to anymore. Am i supposed to miss y'all? Days, months, years have passed. Yet all of you have never left my heart. I think of y'all every now & then, i think of all the things we did. All the people i've met since i was 5, the memories have never faded, my love for y'all never did change.

"Everyday, many people walk in & out of your life. But only some leave their footprints behind."

I guess my heart's made of cement then, because these footsteps never seem to disappear.

How can i live my life missing so many people? Yet, if i loved them so much in the first place, why did i let the friendships slip out of my hands?

I don't understand.

Something big is brewing, 2012 :)

2012-01-02T14:23:00.003+08:00

30th, darling came over to drag me out of bed because i overslept. :(
BuddyHoaiges to celeb Est's 18th birthday w 738. :) Stay pretty dear! :)
They all came over to visit Chubby, :) my dog's a lil too hyperactive for them tho HAHA.Lepaked in my rooom. :)

31st dec, last day of 2o1o. Spent the entire day in church! Practised both the dance & tambourine for watchnight/countdown. :) glad everything turned out pretty alright :) Htht with baba ;)
The dance crew haha :) Had supper @ simpang after countdown! :)

1st Jan, a new beginning. Spent the entire day w churchies again! :) Combined service, lunch, netball, "dinner"! :) Talked with Charles at Tanah for like two hours, God is working in our lives!

2nd Jan, all is wellllll :) Udders!!!!! :) Missed this place. Baba & Manda kissed me! HAHA
Followed by the 100 Challenge, season 2. Amanda & I are the first girls to participate weeeeee. :)
We had to do 100 pushups, pullups, dips, tuckjumps, crunches, squats. I completed in 66 minutes, at least i tried :)
All the competitors! Sam took like 35 minutes to finish! Everyone made a new personal record too i think :)
Amanda came in first, i came in 2nd! hehehe. I guess it's more of a personal accomplishment, like neither of us thought we would be able to complete! Proud of ussss :)

Everyone went to dinner/LAN while i went to meet Leon & Weilun! :) Thank God for AuntyIvy who helped us get steamboat when the stall was already closing :))) Talked until pretty late then headed home. :)

I'm really afraid for school, because i haven't done anything at all. Feel guilty, scared, & hopeless. Yet, i trust that God has everything in His hands. :) Imma trust, & give my best. :) I'm also afraid because .. i'm scared that once i mix back with JC people, i'll start becoming like them all over again. I don't want that to happen. :(

Really excited for the year ahead tho! :) Not for school, but for everything else :)

Struggling

2011-12-29T02:10:00.008+08:00

Life has been so beautiful since i stopped school. Love going out from morning to morning, and not even going home at all. Really do love talking till 6am, & doing things that i really want.

The best part? No JC people in my life these days. What a joy :')
I love baking. I love eating. :)
CHRISTMASSSSSS was cozyyy. :)))))) Church, fooood, parkway then Andrew's to lepak :)

Monday was church, YearEndParrrrrty, then Ryan's for overnight movie marathon :)

Tuesday, my second KTPH appointment, shpng, dance then supper :b
Rather painful, horrible, yet interesting experience. I mean it's like TV coming to life HAHAHA.
Weds Sentosa w XYQ! :)

Xmas celeb w Spangz :)

XYQ Sherlock holmes & supper at bugis :)

Thurs, Karishma, Pizzahut, Starbucks.

Talked alot about God & life. As stagnant as i feel, i realized God has still been working thru me. Was reminded of all the promises i've been given, and made. Made me think alot..

It's nice to have someone getting to know me the way i am, instead of the usual misconception people have. :)

Breakf clique, Bedok85, Bedok reservoir :)

I can't stand it when people don't believe i don't like anyone, & i don't have a boyfriend. I mean what's wrong with that? I think it's fine that my love is dedicated to God, family, & friends. These are the people i treasure most and are those that are staying for life. :)))

CHRISTMASSSSS EVE :)

2011-12-24T01:22:00.000+08:00

HARRRRO . :)

Thurs-Fri was spent @ ODAC chalet!!!! :) Which was really fun, :) even tho people may wonder why we need a chalet when we sleep in tents every other day. Talk, booze, bridge, fly. HAHAHA. Love each & everyone of you ttmx, hate to think that some of y'all will be gone soon .. :(

Fri, xmas celeb @ Andrewssss :) rockband, chilibomb & dinner :) Always feel so homely w y'all hehee. :) Supposed to help cook & grocery shop but owell HAHAHA. Had a gr8 timeee :)

Fri, BBQ w Emb&Edolas! :) It was pretty awkward then got quite fun hehe. Got to know many people better :) There was a whole carton full of Gongcha cause someone works there LOLOL. HAPPY DAY. :)

// Sometime's i don't know where i belong.

Today was a tragedy but it all ended well :') Feel like such a blessed girl. After a terrible day, i still go home to a family waiting for me, at 2am, to have 2nd round of xmas dinner :') I still see a bed filled with love from my relatives :') I still receive well-wishing texts from people i love, i miss. & I still got so warmly treated by the Kuar family, spent the first minutes of xmas w them :')

Even though i had a bad day, even though everything went wrong, even though nothing was perfect, but i'm counting my blessings :') & tmrw's my DaddyGod's birthdayy :) Imma celebrateeeee

Polkadotted

2011-12-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

Been good, busier than ever.

Just one week ago, i finally went for my first appt @ KTPH. So freaking scary with 3 doctors in the room :( Don't really wish to return back there urg. Slacked w Jiaji & Lumyi after that teeheee.

Went airport w Manman & Xiuxiu :>
Andrew house to lepak, & steamboat agn omg iloveit can :)
GoodmanArtsCentre to watch HHKPT! :) & dance a little heh. Missed everyone so much!

Shpng w Candiceeee. :)
Not to forget good food hehehe. I was so damn upset that day because baked potato was sold out :(

Dhoby to slack w ChenDongdong & his two girlgirls HAHA.
Sunday service! :) Had a long long YEP mtg. :(
So adorable right? :) She told Sam, "I took picture off your butt!". Fooled around until night
Caroling @ Starbucks :) It was so fun, got to blend our own frappes!!!!! :) Which was .. a failure HAHA.
Went to find Jojo to take the cake tins, then shopped for the entire aftnn weeeeee. :) Love X'mas shopping!!!! Spent the night baking heh :)
YEP mtg again!!!!! SOOOOO Tiring :( Was a wasted aftnn because all our stuff failed :(

Supposed to Frolick w Yonghao but that idiot sleep until so late! Went w Lala ins :) shunbian do our X'mas shpng also :)
Dhoby againnnnnn ! Buy more x'mas stuff & pass present :) Slacked at cine until damn late/cuiii :(
Spent the entire day at church today! Supposed to meet Minmin & Xiuxiu but being suchan irresponsiblegirl .. :( I overslept. RAAAA. Hate myself for that. :(

Tanah to Jieming to sell my tix yay :) Talked abit haha he very friendly! :) Thanks Xinkai for the help :)

Reached church at like almost 3 when we were mtg at 1! Gummydummies best, mtg at 12 but when i reached, only Tricia was there LOLOL.

YEP mtg agn so tedious man :( But love the nursery it's so cozy haha :)

Had subwayyyy & beelorrkkkkk then dance!!! Baba & I were like rolling around the sanctuary & gg crazy HAHA.

Actually left my keys in church likka retard :( so Aaron had to u-turn back to church so that i could get them!! FEEL SO GUILTY UNTIL NOWWWW OMGOSH :(

Okay that was likkan super long post haha it's almost 4am already. Been keeping this lifestyle for the whole month. The year's ending, i'm so not ready for JC again.

What happened to studying? Why am i having fun everyday? Sometimes i hate myself because i just want to have fun in life. I wish there was some motivation .. :(

Insecure, easily hurt.

I feel so small

2011-12-14T02:05:00.003+08:00

Overslept tdy, as always :( So i didn't get to meet spangz awwwwh.

Met Abner to discuss YearEndParty! Ended up spending more than an hour eating steamboat cause we eat at the speed of light HAHA.
It's really awesome this mini-steamboat thing!! :)

I really love the ambience of airport :) Holds countless memories ... it's like taking a walk thru my past haha :) dislike how it's full of ...... um certain types of people now haha. Lepaked while waiting for the rest to come :)

Deargirls:)
Cliqueeeee. Missy'all. Astons, starbucks, more lepak. :)

I'm always so cautious with people. Afraid to let anyone into my inner circle. Because whenever i do, i just get hurt. I don't know why but, the people whom i treasure the most always feels otherwise.

Perhaps i don't know how to love my dearest friends enough. Or perhaps i've unknowingly neglected them. Or perhaps many things are just one big misunderstanding..

I really don't know how to preserve friendships. I just feel blessed that despite my personality, some people are still willing to stay close after the years. It really means a lot to me, friendships.

Ukelelelelele

2011-12-12T00:43:00.004+08:00

True love knows no jealousy. :)

Spent the morning ukeing in bed. :)
Thankfully i planned to meet Wl @ 130, because i ended up leaving house at 5pm. -____- Mountbatten for dance, PL to lepak, then Simei for starbucks :) Relatively nice, chilly day. :)

I'm really surprised at how detached i can be from the world. I can't be bothered w many redundant things in life, like other people's affairs. I feel so uninterested in the supposedly most juicy gossips. & i don't give a damn what others think about me. People will judge you no matter what you do, who you mix with, what you look like. But tbh i really couldn't care less.

I mean, we all have a greater purpose in life.

Time is so precious, i really need to use it wisely.

Gloria Domino

2011-12-11T14:54:00.002+08:00

Youth camp was fun, crazy, awesome, exhaustive.

Love lying under the stars talking to good people :)

& ofc, God-filled. Praising the Lord in the morning, in the afternoon, and at night, what could be better? :')
4 double-deck beds joined tgt, HTHTs w my lovely girls ;)
I'm scared. I'm so scared. But i'm not gonna let Satan get the better of me. Amen.

Except the fact that it was my birthday, my stupid birthday

2011-12-04T18:26:00.005+08:00

It's not any of the gifts that mattered, it's the thought, the effort, the heart.

Birthday week was relatively good :') there were ups & downs but i guess i'll count my blessings! It's all the small things that made me smile despite all the terrible unlucky encounters :\

Really thank Spangz, BreakfClique & 738 for taking time out of their busy schedule to celeb my bday, despite the fact that most of y'all have exams next week! Jo & Yj who kept me in mind a few days before :) I don't know how much more i can love y'all. Even though we all have drifted apart a whole lot because i'm in JC, y'all still mean the world to me, & your efforts to surprise/meet me really touches my heart :') Y'all have always been people whom i thought would be my friends forever. Glad that we can still maintain after 1, 2 years of separation. Hope it keeps going on this way. This isn't easy but i hope that we'll always stay in each others hearts! :') ♥♥

As for JC friends, i never really expected anything from y'all. But i guess some has proved me wrong! Esp the ODAC girls, really damn shocked/surprised when i opened my eyes to see y'all around my bed HAHA.♥ And also the cover Wl did :)

All the other people i've met over the week, i love y'all too hehe.

On the dark side, there are a few whom i thought would never have forgotten my birthday did. I can't help but feel super disappointed and hurt :( It only goes to show how much i really mean to y'all despite the amount y'all mean to me. I thought it was a two-way thing, but ohwell, that's life.

Only those you love are able to make you smile or frown.

-Hiatus: 5-10dec.

"Celebration" starts

2011-11-30T02:02:00.003+08:00

Last weekend was spent @ church/ubin camping. I really like tent time & all haha :) Tho it's kindof scary having to sit alone in the middle of the dark forests. After, Amanda & Joanna came my house to shower, before mtg the rest to LAN @ Dhoby. Had dinner w Ken, then home w Jiaji. :)

Monday was spent integrating w Manman :) Airport, then mom's workplace!

Tuesday was ODAC from 8-8pm! A whole 12 hours man! Tho i overslept & missed tent-washing :'( Rockclimbing & soccer was a blast tho :) Then church to settle games stuff.

Then comes today. Gna meet Ping, bake, shop, then for my celebration. Hope everything goes well :(

You are 16 going on 17, baby its time to think
Better beware, be canny and careful
Baby you're on the brink

Totally unprepared are you, to face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared are you, of things beyond your ken

Gn

2011-11-28T21:51:00.006+08:00

I don't know how to express myself.
It's getting worse, but nobody believes & I don't want to try anymore.

At least i know I'm not alone.

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live."

Guess i let you get the best of me

2011-11-27T23:11:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, I get really quiet not because of any excuses I make up.

It's because I'm scared, I feel insecure, I feel like I cannot trust you anymore.

It's because I feel like you're treating me less than a friend, & I should distant myself before i get hurt further.

It's because to me, every friendship is a piece of my heart.

& the thought of betrayal and loss tears me up inside.

It's because I never thought I had to doubt friends.

"Well i never saw it coming, should have started running, long long time ago."

I still feel your touch in my dreams

2011-11-24T16:40:00.006+08:00

Say hello to this cute lil' darling! :)
Sunday, didn't sleep so i headed to yishun to have breakf w Ken :) Chatted w this old couple haha i really love the relatively slower pace of Yishun.

Took this two hour bus to church for service! Couldn't keep awake for nuts. Lunch then AGM, which was rather interesting & peaceful haha :)

Toapayoh w Lala to fix my phone :')
It's a pretty lil' bimbo now! (Pink & shiny!) & I'm a happy/broke bitch.
Toured virtually every single shop in the vicinity, interesting to talk to the shopkeepers heh. Town to do our nails & shop a lil'.
Monday, Math lecture! Glad i could catch up even tho i didn't attend the previous one. Met the HOD & CT, had a futile discussion about my promotional status. In the end i just told both of them that i don't want to continue this pointless convo, super angry/sad i cried after :( I hate how the school keeps insisting that i don't go church. It's disgusting.

Dance, then Immortals w Andrew Karishma & Lala! :) It's just okayokay lor! Love how the immortals r golden hehe :)
Tuesday, dance, then shopping w Xueting :)
MBS to celeb dad's buffet! The cost of the buffet was more than the cost of booking the suite lol! Totally not worth it yuckssss.

But family time is definitely worth more than any gold or silver :')

Weds, dance w the house, then dinner spangz! Andrew's house to watch LOTR haha. :) I love Gandalf, my fav character *.*
Thurs, skipped all lectures again. If this goes on i really no choice but to go poly alr. Sighz. I really don't know what i want.. What God wants :(

There's this emptiness i can't explain

Matters of the heart

2011-11-19T02:00:00.002+08:00

"You don't look like you belong to JC, but you don't look like you belong to poly."
"You don't look like you play sports, but you don't look like you play music."
"You don't look like a good girl, but you don't look like a bad girl."
"You don't look like anything."

Yup, that's my life. Neither here nor there. Falling in between the cracks of this world. I don't know where i belong to, i don't know what to hang on to..

Church, then Jiakang & Marcus.

From next week onwards, i'll turn over a new leaf! No more being late ;)

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade..

Fragile

2011-11-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

Why did i choose this path? There's no turning back.
Why do i still want to extend my misery? There won't be more hope.
Why .. ?

Hello. Week has been the usual. Just a lil' cold, nausea & insomnia.

Tues, met Ken then Yonghao. Manpuku, Frolick, Han's! I♥deserts. :) Family to shop & dinner. Flew someone's aeroplane again, sorry a million million & one Leon :( Didn't sleep to rush I&R .. my first & last draft. Quite happy w it tho :')

Weds, submitted my I&R! Bye PW :') I loved you but i hated working w people. You screwed my life up :) Slacked in sch w the girls then Katong to pool & snack w Joy! Super fun hehe but she keep laughing at me :( See doctor & Yishun w fammmmm :)

Thurs, caught up on a lil sleep. Shopping w Adtsx! Then the two of us went to LAN w Alvin Jianjun & Keith. Love shooting people ttmx! Missed Allylove.

Fri, 3 w Celes in the morn. Haven't talk for quite some time! Chem lecture, then Ikea w Huims, Pearl & Pohs to celeb Joy's birthday :) Bought muffin cups, finally going to bake sooooon! Retarded girls went to set every timer in the area to 2 min, so when we left everything would be ringing. LOLOL.

Home for buffet in celebration of my neighbour's wedding! Then bugis w Ken & Xueting♥♥, dinner & movie. "The apple of my eye", really good movie :') I could feel for it hahhaa super sad ending :\ InterContinental for neighbour's wedding :) Super chio bride i wna get married too man pfft :(

Couldn't meet BreakfClique cause of the wedding haha saddiecan! :(

The whole week add up i don't think i even slept 10hours. Either i don't sleep or sleep from 5-6am. :\ Feel like sucha zombie rn.

Perhaps because i don't want another tomorrow to come.

Empty

2011-11-14T21:02:00.003+08:00

Finally went to visit a doctor after a year of procrastination. Referred to hospital for brain scan. No more nagging from everyone! Thanks for your concern anywaysss. ♥♥

Just a thought.. if i drop to poly now, then go uni, i'll graduate when i'm 25! That's like marriageable age alr LOLOL. If i hangon in JC, i'll graduate when i'm 23. I want to work & support my parents. :\ But i really resent this school like crazy. Don't know what to do :(

Sometimes, i really just want to be a child all over again. Love & be loved.

November skies

2011-11-12T22:27:00.006+08:00

November has been a turmoil. Because i'm sucha problem child. I've told my parents about transferring to poly, but i haven't decided if i should .. What if i don't like the course too? What if i fail too? What if ....... so many questions left unanswered, & nobody fully understands my circumstance. I'm left in a frustrating predicament. :(

Adding all the other stuff i'm really freaking depressed can :(

Church. Been spending quite some time at church & with the churchies. :) the other day we went ubin to kayak & cycle! :) BBQ, movie, LAN, pool! VOLLEYBALLLL.

I'm in camp comm & year-end party comm! :) Quite fun to be planning stuff tho i think i still prefer to play instead! I'm in watchnight dance too! Kindof struggling almost all the time but i really enjoy it :) Looking forward to year end camp!! :D

If you're free from 5-10dec, COME CAMPPPPP! :) It'll be the bestest time of your life :) Click the poster for more details! :)

The cutest boy on Earth :) Never fails to cheer me up :) Now he's a naked blackie cause he went for grooming hehe
S501! :) Missing the class. Been rushing OP the past few weeks, & i kindof screwed up but owellll it's over! Had Seoul Garden & celebrated Jess's birthday :) Maybe we'll have another outing next week hehe
Phobos :) I'm in mass dance & i really like it can! Always look forward to practises altho i can't dance for nuts! Can't wait for practise to resume next week :)

Spangz! Been spending lotsof time with em' too :) We even went christmas shopping, planned our candlelight picnic HAHAHA.

ODAC. Okay i've been skipping because all we do is climb 15 x15 storeys up & down with load. But i don't have any freaking bag to carry all the water :( Partially that, partially because i'm cui max cannot tahan. Looking forward to camp tho :)

Dhoby. Super long never hang out there hahaha. Don't know anyone anymore! Except a few familiar faces. Everyone's still as friendly tho :) Had fun there! Miss QSD :\

Breakf clique, i really miss y'all mxmmm. We've drifted like one million & one :( Don't always clubdrinkgamble leyyyyy. Hope to see y'all soooooon.

Hope to catch up with everyone in the holidays!!!! :)

Tempted

2011-11-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

I want to buy a ukelele :(

MJC

2011-11-04T23:39:00.004+08:00

One year ago, i had no regrets.

One year ago, i had no resent.

One year ago, i had a world of choices.

One year ago, i had a purpose.

One year ago, i had everyone fighting by my side.

One year ago, i didn't hate anything.

One year ago, i didn't have to struggle so badly.

One year ago, i didn't know people could be such stupid selfish hypocrites.

One year ago, i didn't know friendships could end without reason.

One year ago, i didn't stop loving you.

One year ago, i was having the time of my life.

One year ago ... i made the worse decision of my life.

It's been some time

2011-10-23T00:06:00.008+08:00

Hello :) Haven't been blogging at all for .. 2 months? Busy juggling all my commitments . :( Okay so here i go! It's gonna be a pretty long post :)

So the past 2 months have been pretty wild. Besides mugging for promos, going crazy over pw, planning camp games, church, dance, family, chubby, ODAC and the usual, I had a lot of fun too!! :)

Special days like MarinaBaySands sleepover, Zoo, Universal studios, FareastWalkaton, LorongHalus, Zouk, LionKingMusical, Sentosa, HariRaya, AGM, FourSeasons.. plus birthdays, meetups, farewells, fun here & there.. Time passed at the speed of light :\

HERE GOES. Random stuff from Sept/Oct :)

Probably the reason why i got 2 Us, 1S for my promotional exams. :( As in, i really put in effort for Chem & Math, like i thought i could get at least B for Math & E for Chem! I guess i started too late, :( JC isn't like O's where you can sleep for the whole year, study a few weeks & yet score well. But I'm really quite disappointed about chem, (I got 23/100 yucks) ! Maybe Science really just isn't my cup of tea :\

Don't know if i can advance, or i have to retain. It's such a dilemma to choose too ......

Recently i've been having so much on my heart & mind. Sometimes i really cannot bear the weight of the burden. Yet i'm not one who would share my inner feelings. I don't know what to do :(

Ups & downs

2011-08-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

Not exactly in the best of moods these days. Simply cruising past the days, semi-awake, not dng any work, not feeling anything. But tdy i really felt so stressed i almost broke down. There's 4days left to the submission of A's EOM. Yet my teacher refuses to mark our EOM, & even the PWC doesn't reply my email. I felt so helpless, it's still at draft 1. & i hear people complain that they are only at draft 4/5/6. Plus, there's so many deadlines looming, all the external commitments i've made..

Ranted on twitter, & really thank God i did that :') because my lovely friends so sweetly offered their help :') Really touched by that, because honestly, i don't expect anything at all from JC people. Imho, they r all selfish & fake. Yet this disproved me, but nevertheless i'm not gonna trust so easily again. It has been broken so many times. But trust can be built :)

Oh, after discussion, the ODAC teachers decide not to open the Kinabalu slot to me anymore. At first it kinda hurt; the way the put it; but then again i don't care anymore anyway! It was only sth that made me rethink my choice.

I used to be able to fall back on you.

Now I face it all alone.

Need

2011-08-18T21:06:00.003+08:00

Life can get complicated at times. But it's important not to forget that the essence of life does not change. God is center, and will always be. I may lose the world but I will never lose God's love. :')

Keep thinking of the kids over at Philippines, really miss them so .. :( Keep looking thru the photos, but sadly i can't post themmmm. They're really just so lovable!!!!

Surely children weren't made for the streets,
& fathers were not made to leave...

Alternates

2011-08-14T17:42:00.003+08:00

HEYyyyy. So it has been weeks since MTPS. But have i done anything about my studies? Not really. :( Instead i've lost all my motivation, gone like that - POOF.
This weeek from weds hmmmmm!

Met w Terence & his friend Zhenwen tgth w Simin haha :) Long time never seeeeeee. :)

Studied w Chinyue Yingting Weilun while certain two girls pangseh :( !

Lepaked w Indah Pingshuang Simin, had ODAC outing :)

ASTONS!!!!! :) Joel (the manager there) resigned alr :( !!!! I'm such a regular i know the staff hehe

Ngeeann Alumni Exco mtg! So formal so scary! Planned for AGM :)

ZOOOO. Yes, again!

Dad's company dinner!!

Ran half my errands too :)

YAY.

HappyBirthdaySingapore!!!! :)

2011-08-10T00:37:00.006+08:00

I have a heart, it beats for youA step at a time, our spirits renewLiving together under the sunOur hearts will beat as oneIn a heartbeat, I’ll be there for you
In a heartbeat, no one else will do
In a heartbeat, we will always be
Together, united; you and me
In a heartbeat, time has passed us by
In a heartbeat, we will reach the sky
In a heartbeat, this will always be
Our people, our country
This is our family
Burnt bridges can't be built.
Especially if you were the arsonist.

Forever a gem in my eyes

2011-08-08T23:45:00.007+08:00

Here's a bit of my everyday!!!!!!! Plus mtg a few people here & there but i'm lazy to mention ooooooops!!!!!

Friday - Overnight Cycling.
:D :D :D IF YOU DIDN'T ALR KNOW, I REALLY LIKE OVERNIGHT CYCLING HAHA. Actually i think i just like roaming aimlessly around at night hehehhe :) Cycled virtually non-stop for 10hours around Sg!!!! It was sorta boring because it was just plain cycling, but we talked non-stop for the 10hours too hehehe :) Got to know XianZhi a million times better because i was talking to him half the time :) Also got to know Jiaji better cause we met to go tgth! Now i can safely say i know every odacian quite well hehehe :)

I love ODAC :)

Saturday - Church mtg / FestivalOfPraise2011!
I'm uber excited to be in this comm because of various reasons & I think it's an honour!! I know with it comes a whole load of commitment but nevertheless, i don't think i should miss the opportunity. I will try and juggle everything well, yes!! :) I have a whole lot of things to learn & I hope i will be able to match up to the standards!

Festival Of Praise was really awesome! No words can describe how it feels to worship God with every part of your mind body soul, together with everybody else who loves Daddy just as much as you do :) & seeing so many come to the Lord, there's no greater joy :') Had fun jumping screaming singing & ofc bonding w my beloveds!!! :)

Sunday - Claire's flight / Fail-Study
I ACTUALLY OVERSLEPT CLAIRE'S FLIGHT WHICH WAS AT 7AM :( Because from thurs-sat I only slept a total of 3 hours so i really couldn't tank alr!!!! :( SORRY BABY I'M MISSING YOU ALR!!!!!!!

Leon & Celes to study but we ended up talking about life for hours HAHA . Concluded that it is illogical for ghosts to exist (HOORAY!!!!!!!!) & that LIFE SUCKS HAHA cause it's damn complicated !!!!!

Monday - Ngeeann Fiesta / Museum / Bedok 85
When i first stepped in, the images that formed in my mind were not sec 4 days, but rather my sec1 days. The school i saw wasn't the current one, it was the old buildings, the old orientations. The people i thought of were the ones who graduated long ago.

Y'kno they hold a place in your heart when you think of them despite their absence. I wish there was a place where i could meet everybody who was in ngeeann when i was sec1. People who have gone on entirely different paths, people whom you don't even know if they're dead or alive. I still miss them so dearly.

On a lighter note, talked to many jnrs i love :')

Museum then 85, TOO TIRED TO TYPE ALR I DONT WNA OVERSLEEP TMRW. MUST TREASURE THIS 5DAY BREAK HEHEHEHE :) LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING!

Life is like one big celebration. What's the rush?

Liquid

2011-08-04T23:44:00.005+08:00

Life has been pretty great, obviously.
But in life there's always give & take, here & there. Life's never perfect.

Been spending lotsa time w secondary school loves & ofc my beloved family :)

Gonna spend much more time w them over the national day break & the next fortnight!

The reason why i have the time to spend precious time w my family is because i have been missing church. & my studies r suffering terribly. Why is it so hard to strike a balance! :(

During the VP talk the other day, i scored 2/10marks. I realized that, depite having been here for 7 months already, i still haven't accepted the fact that i'm in MJC. Nothing here makes me feel like i belong. Nothing here justifies my presence.

I just need something to anchor me here. But i don't know what. I don't know how. I don't know anything. I won't give my all for sth i don't believe in.

I wish the world was a little simpler.

On a happier note, EXCITED FOR THE TIME AHEAD :))))))))))))))))

God has all your tomorrows in His hands

2011-08-01T21:57:00.002+08:00

Have been lepaking my life away. Sleep at 4, wake at 2. Cook myself a meal or go meet my friends. Snap pictures and idle around. Read a book, play with the dog/baby and talk with my family. Read the news and write a little stuff. Pray, worship, have devotion then sleep.

Isn't that how life is supposed to be? God,family,friends oriented. Do the things you love and work the work you have a passion for.

Weekends are like dreams. So beautiful. But all good things come to an end.

JC = study study study.

But I'm not going to be like that. I can't bring myself to. Motivation & pressure doesn't exist because my parents don't exactly emphasize on studies either.

Ambitions? Honestly I just want to be the best housewife on Earth. Bake cook massage take care of the kids.
Or I just want to live a life of my own. Work freelance, travel, volunteer, write, take pictures.
Or I could have a hectic lifestyle, work nocturnal hours, have fun, be always on the move.

Definitely nothing I aspire to be requires university education, which renders me hell in JC.

If God, family & friends is all I care about, why am I here anyway?
JC has been the obstacle dividing me and all these things.
Is it worth the time drainage?

I honestly doubt so. But I suppose God has a reason for me being here.
So I'll have to trust & obey.

When life is at it's strongest

2011-07-30T23:04:00.006+08:00

Hello :) Went to Minghui's house tdy for a mini gathering! :) Claire's back for a vacation after migrating. SO GLAD TO SEE HERRRRR :) Y'know it's home when we can just sit around doing nothing, yet have a great time :)

Went Mom's workplace to surprise her w durian puffs, but realized her birthday is tmrw not tdy #oops. Napped awhile then went late dinner celebration w familyyyyyyy :)

After so many years, my family finally seems to be settling down again. My efforts finally seem to be paying off :') I feel so blessed, seeing the family come tgth. Because it's one of the rare places where unconditional love exists. The simplest sacrifices & efforts made, just for another family member to be happy :) In fact, we even feel happy to be able to sacrifice sth for each other. Afterall, i think nothing else matters than for us to be happy. & the best part is, i know how easily contented we all are. & this is the way life should be, simple. :)

So what if you ruled the world, but had nobody to reign with you?

& So what if you had a million friends, but none of them true to you?

Thanks DaddyGod for all that You have blessed me with, the good times because they make me smile, the bad times because they make me stronger. :')

A thousand times I've failed, still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again, still I'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades :)

MeetTheParents

2011-07-30T11:50:00.004+08:00

Your daughter did not pass any of her main subjects.
She got 4Us, that's less than 40/100, 1S, less than 45/100 for the exams.
She only has 7.5/100, she needs at least 70 to be eligible to try to apply for uni.
She never listens in any class.
Halfway through the lesson, she still has nothing on the table.
She is always half asleep in class.
She is always talking in class.
Her mind never seems to be in class.
She is always talking to Pearl.
I hope to see her next year, she is likely to retain.
But, i don't think she will even be allowed to remain in MJC.

My daughter is going to prove you wrong.

I believe in her, because she has already proved me wrong once.

Oh & by the way, my daughter mentioned to me that the other day you were rather rude to her. If students do not study & fail, that is what they deserve. But sometimes, students fail not because they do not want to study, but it's because teachers have been a stumbling block to them, causing them to give up.

...

I love you dad :')

To the left is my MJC MYE results. To the right is my O's result.

So the only thing i passed for MYE was General Paper. Seeing my result slip, it intrigues me how i attained my O's results. Was it a fluke? Or was it purely my efforts? My results have always been full of failures & borderline passes. I say it was God, because Mark 9:23 says, Everything is possible for him for believes. & I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

I will give my best for promos, i won't continue to disappoint my parents. Really. !

Come what may, at least i know that all my tomorrows are in God's hands. :')

Take That

2011-07-29T23:39:00.003+08:00

Hey! So today, Celestine & I emceed for the Meridian Talent Night. Sacrificed a lot of time on the script which we ditched. It wasn't a pleasant experience at all. :( I've led crowds in cheers, given a talk during assembly, made announcements, emceed, been on stage countless times, done all these related things before, but this was a completely novel experience.

How do you be funny, rara the crowd, not be lame, not talk to yourself, not insult people, introduce the contestants, and everything at the same time? :( It really wasn't easy at all, and to be honest, i think we kindof failed. :( The crowd was okay, the response was okay, but it was just well .... okay.

It was a full house! Many people who couldn't get tickets crashed & stood at the back. Even tho we may have screwed up the show, Take That was really an awesome time :') So many talented meridians!

Oh & to the ones who cheered for me, encouraged me, comforted me, hugged me, Love y'all to bits!!! Really appreciate it!!! :)

"I'm standing here when all i want is to be over there."

Flipsides

2011-07-27T00:53:00.011+08:00

Funfestique medal!!! :) Handball 2nd wheeeeee.

The only thing i like about JC is the amount of events being held! Honestly they're pretty fun if you participate but then you'd have to compromise your homework time, which is alr minimal :(

OK DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE HAHA.

Celestine & I are emceeing for Take That!!!!!! :) If ure attending, please try your best not to roll your eyes at us okay!! & Laugh at our jokes even if it isn't funny HAHA. SO SCARED. Gonna have rehearsal tmrw hehehe exciting much!!! :)

Oh today i got really upset at some really rude teacher of mine but i'm proud of myself :') I didn't go and confront him like i would have. Still contemplating it because HE'S THE ONE MTG MY PARENTS. I think he was really guilty tho, but he didn't apologise & really went overboard !@#)$*@#&$@# !!!! Then i realized all these teachers have no respect towards their students because the students don't have respect for themselves in the first place. They don't expect an apology. The teacher always win, is always right. Hold grudges; let it slide. Disgusted by the passiveness of it all. OK not gna brood over it

Realize i know nuts about all my subjects. Really need to mug like crazy to catchup :(!

These few months have been rather fun actually, looking forward to manymanymany things!! :) I think my schedule is pretty much filled up alr, if you wna jio, jio after my promos okay !!!!! I'll definitely make lots of time to meet up w all those i haven't been mtg for a long time then. :) PLEASE UDS. Loveyou :)

Mars

2011-07-26T22:23:00.006+08:00

I AM FUCKING PROUD THAT I'M FROM A NEIGHBOURHOOD SCHOOL.

Where normal people actually exists.

Where people actually come from the 21st century

& don't live in a well laughing at their own hilarious jokes.

Where people are nice to you with no strings attached.

Where there's respect, character & life.

Just sayin' :)

Don't look back too often or you'd stumble on sth in front

2011-07-24T20:36:00.003+08:00

If you hold a place in my heart, you hold it forever.

& I'll love you unconditionally.

Is that why i've built so many walls around my heart now? All the people i loved so dearly, yet have left my life. & it's not one, not two, but so many i've lost count. All the little acts they've done in my life, i've never forgotten. All the memories we created together, they're locked up in my mind. People i haven't talked to for years, i still think of them every now & then. It feels like everyone has moved on with life but i'm left stuck behind. It hurts, so much so that you don't wna let anyone else in anymore. You are afraid to give your everything to a friend once again. What meant so much to them may mean nothing the next second. What hurts more is that you may have been the one who caused the f/s to end.

Many people will walk in & out of your life, but only some will leave footsteps. It is impossible to have all your friends stay for eternity, I should be thankful that I have for the many who did. Really love y'all to bits :')

& How, can i ever remove you from my heart? 4years. It's certainly not a short period of time. The memories of you mark everything i do. Feelings may have died but, the love doesn't fade. The love as a friend.

But i think i'm opening up, there's so much more to the world that i haven't seen.

Come what may, at least i'll always know all my tomorrows are in God's hands :)

SELF-REWARD SCHEME by 2012

2011-07-21T22:44:00.003+08:00

Fantastic A's results

Polaroid

Underwater Camera

Youth Camp

HorseRiding lessons

Family vacation

Fullerton's C.Buffet

USS

Scuba diving

Travel w friends

Australia w my girls!!!! :)

THIS IS MY MOTIVATION TO STUDY YES.!!!!!

NO TIME.

2011-07-20T22:44:00.005+08:00

So my study plan didn't exactly work out. Have been busy every every day. :( & still sleeping in classes. But now the teachers make me sit alone so i'd stop talking & start listening!! This is so sad :( !!!

Recently ....

1) Funfestique!! I joined Badminton & Handball, so that equates to 4days of whooping fun!! :) So sad only can join 2 events omg if not i'd join like everything hehehe. I think this is the first school event i participated in this year & i really really enjoyed it ttmx!!! :)

Like thru badminton, i got to play w so many people & built/strengthened many friendships. Even tho i was just PATHETIC at playing on the morning of the competition, people practised w me & were so DISCOURAGING yet nice :) REALLY LOVED THAT + I SRSLY IMPROVED LIKE MAD!!! & my family were so supportive, my psch sis gave me a crashcourse on badminton & my mom treated me icecream for not falling down on the court/getting thrashed 0-11. :)

Handball was gr8 too! At first i was pretty apprehensive bcuz the people on the team were like kinda-my-friends-but-not. But it turned out really awesome & fun!! :) Even tho we faced some trouble but we were tgth thru it :) Learnt that Phobos people r really so damn nice!

2) NgeeAnn peeps! Have been mtg them these days & i really really miss NAS. Met 3 of my closest cliques & it still feels the same despite the fact that I'm always the JC kid. I wish i had more time for them :( !!!

Oh, & special mentions to Cherie, who came all the way to MJ from Dover just to lend me a book for my Chinese Oral!!!!! Yujing, who came from ToaPayoh + specially went katong to get pies, to MJ & surprised us!!!! :) && all the random calls/texts all the time from NASians!!!! :) The love i have for yall is indescribable :')

NgeeAnn people are forever so sincere, loving, nice, honest, sweet, reliable, fun, & simply awesome. They say Secondary School friends r for life, i believe that :)

Just a thought

2011-07-10T13:16:00.006+08:00

I have big dreams. & I want to work for it.

But sometimes I only feel like a small girl. So insignificant & unworthy.

Sometimes i just want to live life as it is, I don't want to grow up.

Even tho time waits for no man, thru it all i know i love every bit of my life.

& that's one part of me that will never grow up,

The way a child is happy no matter what happens. Simple, easily contented.

To be able to smile when you fall, laugh when you cry,

To feel like it's the best day of your life when your daddy gives you a sweet.

I thank God for that.

I don't know why

2011-07-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

These days have been pretty awesome. Really need to start being mugger-qi soon tho :(

Had PE elective tdy!!! :D GOLF. Edbert said he's the top kartrider player in sch then he lost almost every match to me HAHAHA. Then he bluff me he motion sickness lucky i didn't really believe, since Celes & I lie about everything to everyone. WE GOTTA STOP THAT HAHHA

Golf was pretty fun, started out @ the driving range, I thought i was bad because i missed the ball a few times. Then Yingjie told me Sandeep missed every ball. FELT SO COMFORTED HAHHA.

Continued at the putting green, where we hit the balls into the holes from a near distance. SUPER FUN MACHIAM SOCCER WHEN OUR BALLS MISS. Then we went for chipping, which was fun too because the distance & terrain were more challenging! At the end, watched the best 12 have a competition. REALIZED HOW NOOB I WAS HAHAHAHA.

HAD SO MUCH FUN MANZXXX. :)

Helped ODAC to springclean awhile after golf! The twins were high on the ODAC VISION, they're just crazy man LOL . Super dusty my nose couldn't take it :(

Pastamania w Celes then lepak w her + Leon&Weilun + Scarlette (YES I GOT HER, MY GUITAR BACKKKKKK :))

Still unable to find any NDP tix. :( IF YOU HAPPEN TO HAVE EXTRA PLEASE THINK ABOUT GIVING ME OK I'LL LOVE YOU TO BITS & PIECES ......

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

2011-07-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

"#ZodiacFacts Everyone a #Sagittarius ever loved holds a special place in their heart forever."

I'll keep every single memory in my heart. But I'm never looking back again. So many years, I'm sick & tired of walking in this circle. I haven't been missing you either. I'm so over it.

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

Dance the night away

2011-07-06T21:13:00.004+08:00

YOYOYO. Went to sch w Celes tdy!! Specially changed to red bag for Phobos house meeting can?!!!! It was about funfestique which i wna join but i doubt can find a team :(!!!!! SO SAD RIGHT.......

Got back Chem. CELEBRATION YO. 28/100!!!!! I only did 3 qns & my mcq almost all shade B. AND I GOT A 28 WHICH IS HIGHER THAN MY CLASS AVRG LOL. Altgh my class is one of the last few in cohort but well it just called for CELEBRATION HEHEHEHE.

Then math. SINGLE DIGIT. BOTTOM 5% IN COHORT. YES, THE ONLY SUBJECT I STUDIED FOR MYE PROLLY DID THE WORST. WHAT IS THIS LA FML :(

ODAC FIRST TRAINING IN A ZILLION YEARS. I'm still as cui as ever :((((! Can't run properly argh!!!!

Happy day sooooooo.. CUPWALKER-PEPPERLUNCH-FROLICK. :D

http://youtu.be/aoExTn7PC2E

Oh, this is the terrible ndp song this year. EVEN I THIS PATRIOTICGIRL94 ALMOST FAINTED WHEN I WATCHED IT......... It's what happens when the govt tries to "connect" with the youths. OMG

Lyrics of "Fun Pack Song" (to the tune of Bad Romance - Lady Gaga)
By: Haresh Sharma
Oh o o o o o o o o
Time for the fun pack song
Oh o o o o o o o o
We like the fun pack song
Let's start with the bag
That's right, grab your bag
It's the fun pack bag
Attack the fun pack

(REPEAT)
Hold up your flag, don't you forget
You can wave it if you feel like it
Let's wave the flag
Wave wave wave
Let's wave the flag
Take out your light stick, it's two of a kind
It's interactive, means you can join
Just pretend
Oh oh oh... It's a disco

(SPOKEN)
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want a wet, wet tissue
I want Newater and I want a cold drink
You and me, let's share a bit
I want a biscuit and I want a sweet
You and me, let's share this treat
Kopi-O o o o o o o o o
Time for the fun pack song
Kopi-O o o o o o o o o
We like the fun pack song
Let's start with the bag
That's right, grab your bag
It's the fun pack bag
Attack the fun pack
I want Newater and I want a cold drink
You and me, let's share a bit
I want a biscuit and I want a sweet
You and me, let's share this treat
Kopi-O o o o o o o o o
Time for the fun pack song
Kopi-O o o o o o o o o
We like the fun pack song
Let's start with the bag
That's right, grab your bag
It's the fun pack bag
Attack the fun pack!

First day of school

2011-07-05T22:29:00.009+08:00

& i was late. Bet ure not surprised. I'm srsly dying w/o Hadi's car to take to school :( Really grateful that he offered to send me to sch at the start of the year! Like everyday w/o car = late for sch. J2 EXAMS FASTER END CAN? :(

I promised i'd start being goody2shoes from tdy, well I TRIED... ok super tired to elab :( !

Oh & i think i've really grown kinda scared of MJ people, they're all super duper judgemental. Like i didn't even dare to add people i know on FB also! :\ But new term machiam new start! Like everyone seems so interesting & nice once again. :D PEARLCHIA teach me to stalk my fellow meridians hehehehe. But 501 is scarily silent once again. :(

OHOH. Weepin drew a portrait of me, SO I DECIDED TO DRAW ONE BACK . But everyone say his one so much nicer. BUT I THINK I DRAW UNTIL DMN CHIO LEH WAHLAO!!!!
He looks like this; the drawing looks like that.
RESEMBLE WHAT! :(

SO CUTE RIGHT. BRINGS OUT THE HANDSOMENESS. TOTALLY. :D

Last week Cheryl was asking me about her lesb thing, then i realise MJ people are quite queer. Stop doubting everyone's sexuality, mine also! I'm straight! Even those who know keep telling me if one day i say i'm lesb, they'd believe. Do i act like one?!!!!!@

SPENT THE NIGHT W CHUBBY HAHA

Hand-hand!

Super hyper, obedient & adorable ohmy!

OHOH WILFRED SUPPOSED TO LET CELES & I CUT HIS HAIR BUT HE BACK OUT WAHLAO !!!!!!

I wish i was a little more brave at times.

Kiss me on the sidewalk

2011-07-04T23:20:00.014+08:00

Supsup!!! Tdy was darn gr8 :))!! Started it with a meal with my daddy! Be nice to your parents k, blood is thicker than water :)

Bugis to buy my chocolate milkshake :D :D then met my bbg at Little India! So happy to see herrr C: oh we decided to wear dresses cause some girl doesn't have shorts wth cute ttmx can!! ♥♥

our first stop, KTM! The train tracks/stn will only be here till 14July, for the public to visit before they r demolished .. Gone forever :(
Being the patrioticgirl94 I am, ofc I had to visit this legendary chio & iconic place, even tho it's like 1hour away from civilisation.
I TOOK LIKE 20 TRIES TO GET THIS. & used Simin's cammy ins of mine!!! SO WORTH IT THO
*GASPS* SO PRETTY CAN YOU BELIEVE YOUR EYES?!

I love my wifeeee :)
Oh it was super duper crowded can!

Totally perfect for lovey dovey pictures, can ttly visualise all the kisskiss picture perfect moments, with the background full of railway tracks. But too bad so sad don't have anyone to take of/with HAHA

Went to eat then continued on our journey! Discovered this haven at Anderson Rd!!! So many picture ideas agn but no model :(

We went high & started dancing (or prancing) around. LOLOL

Simin was so afraid when i climbed onto the bridge la LOL
Keppel bay!! Super love the cool sea breeze blowing on my face.
SO CHIO. FAV PICT OF THE DAY :)
SeahIm to have our dinner then home while bbg went tuition!

If i don't remain an old maid, my boyf so ttly has gotta like to do stuff like today too! SO FUN OMG
OH OH WE MET THE SAME WEDDING CPL HAHAHA LIKKA FATED.

That was the best week since JC started. Or maybe the Cebu week. :D

GOODBYE LIFE. HELLO HELL. xxx, MuggeridianQi

Monkey business

2011-07-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

Heyheyhey! :) Tdy was zoOOooOOoO day. YES ZOO. :D With Darren Celestine Chinyue Leon ShiuanJun Weepin Weilun Wilfred! Had a ball of a funnnn :D Didn't get to ride my elephant/horse tho SO SAD CAN.

Out of nowhere we started to trick all the tram-ful of tourists, pointing to rdm places and saying we saw sth HAHA. Then the whole tram would stare for dmn long, and a little boy even told his parents he saw it. LOL! Even when Leon said "Blue tiger!" people kept looking. HAHA
Tao eh planning our route. (Which we didn't follow LOL)
The most camwhore guys i've ever met
WHITE TIGER!!!!!

DESTROY. HAHAHHA. Terrible kid

See the snake in Wilf's hand, i held it too :D :D :D

This ugly (oops) horse is called Rosie. It ignores me, TERRBILE KID.
HAHA we went to the front & got soaked by this terrible seal.
Jubes!! :D Terrible kid.

SUMO house for dinner, then home for 2nd round yayyyyy. :D

Spent so much time planning for tmrw, hope everything turns out fine hehe so excited all over agn! :) This week is ttly like hungry ghost's festival, aft that = return to hell on earth - MJC.

OoooO i taught them Ninja Wars! MISS CEBU CANZX

Confessions of a shopaholic

2011-07-02T22:34:00.008+08:00

YEEEEEEEEEHAW. I feel so shiok/guilty now, been shopping ttmx these days. Spent 100+++ in 3 days. Really bought ALOT of things and there's still stuff i wna buy!! So unlike me to find so many stuff i like hehehe happygirl94! :)

WhatTheFlea w Xiuyun tdy! :) It was big but didn't sell much good stuff. I think ForFleaSake would have been btr :\ But holland is so ttly out of the way!
Shopped around town until dinner! We ate a lot of food tdy HEHE oh btw GreenAppleSunrise is super nice i just realised!! :)

I AM DMN SAD I DON'T HAVE NDP TIX FOR THIS YEAR. :'( CAN I CRY......... patrioticgirl94

3 RANDOM THOUGHTS..

1) DON MOEN FOLLOWED ME ON TWITTER OHMY I THINK HE'S DMN HOT HAHA, was so dmn close to him last year cause i went to queue fop from 12pm when the doors open at 630pm or sth HAHAHA. So i got to sit RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE STAGE. RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. & I TOOK THIS PICTURE.

SO HOT RIGHT OHMY.

2) SO EXCITED FOR ZOO TMRWWWWWWW I WNA RIDE AN ELEPHANT. Got one stranger going i'm likka shy ohmy scared of strangers can!!!

3) Grandpa not gng 745 service tmrw omg haha i haven't seen him in like days weeks months years forever can!!!!!! MISS HIM & ALSO MISS PRAISE&WORSHIPPPP. :(

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

I'll always remember how we came close to being what I wanted to be

2am who do you love

2011-07-01T02:28:00.003+08:00

Hello! I just FINALLY got into the house after a few hours of waiting. It's 2am rn, did a lot of thinking. Forgot my keys -_-

So after half a year in MJC, what do i have to say?!
1) MJC really lives up to its name, Mugger JC. My snr told me this, & it's like quite true

If you say you study & pass = Mugger
If you say you nv study & pass = Closet Mugger
If you say you study & nv pass = Stupid mugger
If you say you nv study & nv pass = Nobody gives a dmn abt you alr

2) Study also fail. Don't study also fail. You end up not giving a dmn about anything!
3) MJC people dmn fake/weird/nerd/unreliable/gossip/step/evil. NASians r like angels compared to Meridians.

But thr are a few peeps that i rly like :)

THAT ASIDE, HELLLLLO 6DAY HOLIDAY. :)

Day1: WildWildWet w Belle!!! (Plus lots of shopping here & thr hehehehe)
Darling blames me for making her buy so much stuff not even my fault ok HAHA. Saw Leon's/Christine's class @ WWW!!

Splashing good time HAHAH. Luv the slide man hheheh. Had fun laughing at all the people who capsized themselves whilst trying to climb up the floats (inclu belle). Almost died carrying the huge float up 2-3storeys.

Everything seems halved because I grew so much in sec3! :/

Once upon a time everyone looked like giants to me HAHA

Belle: How come you & minlin like in diff sch like that?! How come you not stressed one.
HAHA LIKE REAL.

Day2: CENTRAL.

Tdy went Serala w Yingjie!! Pretty pretty ! Oh I found I dress I liked, came back awhile later and it disappeared :'( She bought lotsa stuff tho HHAA.

Lepaked at clarkequay bridge/riverside after.

Spot the hearts!!!

Keep taking wrong train these days . :(

So many places i wna go

Never again

2011-06-28T22:45:00.010+08:00

Sunday had the Cebu presentation for both church services! I was so light-headed i'm amazed we managed to stay active from like 8am-1pm!!!!!! Aft that went to eat lunch w the peeps @ bedok! Thanks Meiyun for the rides :)))

Spent the rest of the day w Pingshuang Simin Xiuyun ♥♥♥ MISSED THESE PRETTYAYES TTMXX. Odac room is super cozy can, totally can have sleepover thr but too bad there's motion sensor inside!! :(
Aww Weilun we always rmb you leh :)

Yst went Weepin's house w Celes Leon Weilun! Laughed my ass off HAHAHA. His bed dmn comfy almost didn't want to go home and his rabbit Rino dmn cute HAHA. They started calling me kum gong for i dont know what!!! Totally doesn't feel like MYEs omg HAHAHA

Tdy studied w Celes @ Simei! Then some idiot headed to sch thinking we study there HAHA #foreveralone poor Wilfred it must suck to be Celestine's friend. Slept/played tilttolive in sch until 8 ohmy dmn zai (Y)

Celes keep spamming photos cause she's despo to win Wilf HAHA

"Wah dmn cold sia! *Takes out lighter"

MYEs have been pretty much of a joke because i only studied for Math, & i couldn't do the paper! I'm prepared to get 4Us already, so whatt if i fail everything imma buck up & get the best improvement award for eoys!!!!!! :) It's the first time i walked into an exam hall not know anything at all. Yonghao, now i know what it feels like to be you hehe

Slept thru the econs ppr tdy, Charles had diarrhea then he had to leave the exam for like 30 min lah! I hope the rest of the team r getting better :\

Chubby :)

Likka sick bird :(

2011-06-25T11:32:00.007+08:00

Miss you two bitxhes!!!!!! Seeing you in 2days hehehee :))))

Wilf's classic
Weilun's classic

ELO. ! & so have been having diarrhea & nausea since i returned from Philippines! :( Doesn't make sense because i'm the only one having it, & i ate what everyone else did! Ok so thinking i was fine... i still headed to sch yst!

Fainted at the cashier @ ntuc OHMYY. Really embarrassing because there was an entire queue behind me, they prolly thought i was pregnant because i was saying that i'm dizzy, wna vomit & holding my tummy. One lady offered me sour plum HAHA. When i woke up, two ladies were debating whether i'm a regular customer LOL ........ This is like the 4th time i fainted in public alr :O So it wasn't really a big deal to me, after i woke up i still went to sch ~

Slept 4 hours in school!!!!! At least i managed to study a few pages tho :) Aft that i felt so cold i couldn't take it so i went to the doctor's!! Have to go for a blood test later. Am i gna die? :O

Ako Insik

2011-06-24T00:24:00.010+08:00

Okay so technically i was the photographer for the trip. So there aren't many shots of me! Anyw most of the time i was busy w the activities, the rest of the time it wasn't safe/allowed to bring my camera along. So many of the shots are by Abigail/PsDaphne/Ate!

Oh and SADLY, i am not allowed to upload the pictures of the cebu people due to privacy issues. :( There's like 1.6k pictures y'kno!!!! Only can upload the pretty meaningless ones because afterall, the pinoys were the essence of our trip! Plus i'm lazy to choose photos so i'm randomly uploading a few here!
The super-draining-yet-super-worthit dances!
The street kids don't even get to live in such slums. They simply live under a tiny canvas sheet beside the polluted river.
Taught the kids @ the centre!!!!
Ninja war every night hehehe
IceCastle!! Local Icecream delight :)
My Subway breakf everyday :D
Nice waterbottles they prepared for us aww

BBQ!
Spectacular nightview from where i stayyy :)

SSSSP.

10 cool things i did in Cebu :D

Piggybacked random boy on the street!
Prayed and hugged people in lifelong imprisonment & drug rehabs.
Cuddled, bathed, groomed and wash the feet of street children.
Ate balut - a semi-developed fertilised egg.
Fed and played with street children outside the mayor's office!
Held bones & skulls at a local cemetry.
Sat on all the local transports available, like horsecarts, bikes etc. Really cool because we sit on the vehicles like this

(Oh, & they don't have traffic lights)
Stayed at the top of a mountain in a rehab centre!! Climbed up and down just to buy bread
Ate the local food, had to finish every morsel of food on my plate which inclus the head bone tails of fish
Talked to many local strangers!!

All the pinoys are so warm and nice it's so difficult not to get emotionally attached to them. On one hand, The prisoners and street children so yearn and appreciate all the love we shower on them, on the other I was so blessed by how God allowed his love to flow thru me and make these people happy. I'm awed by their simplicity of life and for the Christians, their faithfulness to God. The children are so easily contented and all they want is a simple hug or just to lean against somebody. Many of the locals earn just enough to put bread on the table,yet smiles paint on their faces all the time. The street people used the same water to bath, drink, wash and play, yet im unable to detect any resentment in them.

Oh, They were all so amazed @ my small eyes because none of the pinoys have small eyes..... I don't know to laugh or cry HAHAHA. :(

Really an unforgettable week. :)

P/s. Really haven't started studying. Goodbye MYEs

I'll return a filipino. :)

2011-06-15T03:03:00.006+08:00

Heyy~ it has been yet another week. Holidays seem to have only 12hours each day. Not enough time :( This prolly marks the end of my free holiday. No time to meet anyone from tdy onwards. Pity I didn't meet half the people I anticipated to :( miss y'all millions and ones

Spent the past week mostly w Spangz! One day w Pearl & Yingjie, two w Celes Edbert Leon Weilun Wilfred. Oh then church & random lovelies here and thr. 7 days gone just like tht :/

still hvnt started studying for my myes >:/ only 4 days left after I come back from Cebu. Gonna hafta drop 2subjs I guess.

These days everyone seems to have someone in mind, wish I had somebody I liked too! Incentive for gng to sch hehehe.

So fed up over ODAC man but well i don't rly care anymore i guess. Just hope that the snrs have fun @ our 2nd farewell! :)

LOOK AT MY BBYYY 1100D :) I feel so broke now aft buying OHMAN. NEHMIND RED IS A LUCKY COLOUR YO. Money will fall from the sky, RIGHTTT.
Anyway I'm leaving in a few hours! Cebu, Philippines for a mission trip - that is to spread the word of God & volunteer at the same time. Hopefully when i return, i won't be sleeping aft 4am everyday anymore. :C And that i'll become a better person, closer to God! :)

Be back on 21/22 June, luvluv xx.

PS. Qsd! Here's a few hugs incase sth happens & i can't be thr for you :(

*HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG *HUG

Bring on all the pretenders, i'm not afraid

2011-06-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

Yst was spent nua-ing because i wasn't feeling well & the weather was just so alluring .......... so i decided it shall be made a precious home/sleep dayyyyy where time didn't matter heeehe.
Finished reading this novellll. Damn stupid it ended so abruptly i was so angry :( Didn't really like it cause it's v confusing, yet i kinda relate to it hmmm. Thankfully most of Picoult's books r made into movies/shows so imma watch it yay!!!
Tried to make an Apple shepherd's pie!!! Turned out really yummy tho i didn't rly follow the recipe LOLLL. Family loved it too! Gonna experiment more stuff this june, hopefully i don't burn the kitchen *crossesfingers

Tdy went to meet Alvin, Jianjun & Keith @ nas, collect grad cert!!!
Bumped into a few friends & also Mazlan!!!!! :) He rmbs me omg :') Warmly greeted me at the sch gate hehehehe. NAS will always feel like home :') (Mazlan Facebook Fan Club If you don't know who he is!!!!!)

Slacked, lunched, then sent Jj to TP for his exam! CartRider!!!!!! :D Met more people around tp/myarea! Wanted to go watch Insidious but no time slot :(((((!

Cabbed to eastpoint to find Alison :D Dinnered, talked, stoned, hwked! :)

Bought scrapbook pprs!!!!! :D :D
IKR! JJ WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? ONE YEAR YOUNGER ONE YEAR CUTER.

What does it feel like to be in l o v e ?

2011-06-04T23:02:00.010+08:00

YOOOOOOOHOOOO. Another week has passed ohmy. Seems like just yst that O's ended. :( Time flies. I don't wna grow up, never wna grow up.

Extra lecture week was really slack, this is terrible. :(

Tues! Aftnn, Ikea meatballs w Michelle, Pearl & Yingjie :) Yj baked yummy cookies !!!!!! :D
Evening went to Ruth's house to find her & Celes! Tamp for pasar malammm :)

I caught her annoying giggle :(

Weds, Swensens w PearlChia! Then study w Celes :)

SUGARRRRRUSHHHHH.

Thurs, slacked w Yingjie, watched soccer awhile w Huimin Jess Pohyee! Dinner w Spangz, Eighteen chefs!! :D

Fri (TGIF!!!!), skipped sch, went to Xiuyun's house w Pingshuang to dye our hairs :D

Spent a few hours stoning, talking, stalking & camwhoring :B
Supposed to go punggol beach but it was too late awww enjoyed my time w the two girlsss! :)

This girl flying off to America for 3 weeks!!!! Will miss you babeeeeee :(

Met Jasper to go church tgth, Night Cycling!!!!!!!! :) ECP-KEMB-BEDOK-TAMP-PASIRRIS

Super sleepy cause i woke up super early tdy. :( Everyone was so mean last night ohmyyyy. GL kids!!! I love my group hehehe HAD FUNNNNNN :)

Wasn't supposed to sleep but Susanne cabbed me home, so i had some extra time = stone = slept till night. :( Missed ODAC mtg & my checkup oopssssss. Oh well ikdgaf, really upset i can't go for farewell, :( #toobadsosadsq!

I don't submit to fate, i twist it. I fight for myself, & the people i love.

Caught in the middle

2011-05-30T22:16:00.004+08:00

HEYYYYY. Life's been much of a mind-fvck but WHATEVER YOU LIKE YOOOOO. Imma a happy bird after Sunday's altar call! Really haven't felt so close to God for some time. Days have been swinging 180degrees @ rocket speed, stress-free-stress-free it's almost driving me crazy!!!

Did a fund-raiser on Sunday! Breakf saleeeeeee it went well ohmy the food was so yummyyy thanks for all the support k peeps!!! :) I think we still don't have enough funds to fully subsidise our Cebu trip tho :\ Nehmind God will provide ^^

Airport to "study" w Celestine Chinyue Leon Weilun! Studied how to be an ahlian, taught by zaikias Leon & Weilun!
They damn pro manzxxxxx (Y)

Played so much till i completely forgot about the buffets my family was hosting !! Reached home just in time to help clear the dishes (Y) Terribly missed BOTH the buffets OHMY.

MONDAY, GP EXAM. I was so busy eating my pocky & trying to not get caught until i didn't finish both paper -_- I guess the realization that it's my MYEs haven't hit me :((((((

NATed learning journey!! Class sneaked off to SeoulGarden while Joy & I went around town!!!
Shopped & went to beautiful places!!

Had Marches & PizzaHut :D :D :D BEEF LASAGNA FTWWW
SADLY the 2 DSLRS & Polaroid were w the rest of the class AWH :(

Met rest of class @ Suntec for JC1 bash wheeeeeee KUNGFU PANDAAAA . Slacked then went home. Pictures by my TEO classmatez will prolly have to wait 10years ^^

TMRW HAVE PAPERS AGAIN T_T

Somehow

2011-05-28T21:55:00.006+08:00

Slept till real late tdy! :s Rushed down to Jay's house for lunch/usher mtg. Cabbed to siglap, had starbucks then went church to play taboo & have service.

Didn't have time to go meet my bbgs 738 to celeb Minlin's birthday, so sorrrry! :\ Miss&love y'all lotslotslots

Need to change my oversleeping_lategirl94 badhabit :((((((((

I really shouldn't be saying this but, at times i really feel like giving up on odac. :C

Irreplaceable

2011-05-27T18:29:00.006+08:00

Yet another week has passed! Time flies man ohmyyy. So lazy to rmb my week so here r some random peeeeektures! Yingjie hasn't uploaded all the Colosseum picts :(
Bubbles r the best entertainment

Both tcher leaving awwwww i don't rly care but Ms Aisha (???) v sweet to me thanks i appreciate you :))))))
4 1 5 0 1 ♥ Last PE lesson tgth :( Y'all r great girls!!!! We can't pwn others @ captains ball tgth anymore we can't cheer our hearts out tgth anymore awhhhhh :(
Tuesday night the entire MJC went to Jln Besar to support MJ v VJ soccer finals!!! Super exciting match hehehe went around screaming w CG/OG/ODAC people (Y)
COLOSSEUM WAS EVEN BETTER MANNNNNNNNNNN

Srsly talked/screamt non-stop SO AWESUMZZZZZ

Met BreakfClique for Astons/IceCreamChefs wheeeeeeeeeee

I'm candid, so what? If i'm nice to you, it's from the btm of my heart. I won't be nice to you then stab you in the back. Oops i sound like a bitxh hehe

Semi out of my life

2011-05-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

Hello! It's been a week since i blogged. I had to check FB to rmb my week, LOL! School/Skipschs, random intervals w Yingjie, oversleepings/sleep-ins/sleeping in schs, rather lazy week. :S

Missed out quite a bit of stuff because this week was overloaded/fullofoversleeping, I'm sorry if i flew your aeroplane yeah! :\

Friday-Saturday - Expose day; overnight triathlon race, it was crazy man. & lotsoffun ofc! :)

TanahMerah-BedokSwim-ECPcycle-Everywherearoundtown&highways-Laopasat-VIVO-ECP-Run around ECP

Literally travelled the entire Singapore via foot/bike, after swimming, almost died but it was srsly an awesome experience!
Saturday-Sunday - Hibernated

Sunday - Met Celes! Lost my EZlink+Nets :'(

Monday - ScholarshipInterview (which i failed :C)/ TRL for PW!

Tuesday - Airport w Xingkai / Ally house w Spangz! Pizza, HTHT, Shoot shag marry, T/D, bully yikchoong cause Brendan not here~ Threw his bag to the middle of the pool (Y)

Wednesday - Spangz breakf / ODAC, sprained my ankle :( / Dinner w Alvin Destin Joaquin!

This ancient phone has a touch pad v cool!

Thursday - Doctor / Ken / Dance / Cebu cultural meal, almost died eating the gigantic portion of salty food + fishhead, but proud of myself, i finished (Y)

Friday - Farewell .....

My group aww!
Always in my heart♥

First time

2011-05-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

"I wonder what it feels like to be b e a u t i f u l."

By surprise

2011-05-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

HEY~ This has got to be the most unproductive days of this term. :\

MONDAY
Met Darren Simin Pingshuang @ sch in the morning! Supposed to revise for ODAC test but ohwell we ended up rapping, seeing pretty girls, talking about *ahem stuff. Joaquin joined us after! Left before the twins came awwwwww.

SP to find Ally w Alvin & Eugene! I missed my Spangz family♥ can! Quality time w each other :)))) Aft tht, they went to meet Jianjun & Joelt w/o me :(

Plaza Sing to meet Andrew, Charles, Leela! THOR. Not bad a movie ;) ;) ;) Cause Thor has a hot body. !!! Seaweed shaker fries yay!!!!!!!

Tdy!

Got a random text from Yonghao to go eat frolick! & so we did. Then all the drama begin, didn't bring my ezlink/nets/money. So i was stuck. :( I feel damn stupid can okay shall not talk about it.

Sent him to TP then went to meet Celes! All i did was eat, drink, FB, sleep. :( Didn't even do a single qn omg i'm incorrigible :'(

I really miss ngeeann people :'( MJ just doesn't feel like home.

Love lifted me up

2011-05-08T18:02:00.013+08:00

HELLO :) Haven't been posting because i've been reaching home like real late, so i'd go to bed almost immediately. :( Here's my entire week!!!!! :)

Tuesday - Celes, Ruth & I did Wilfred's pressie, then went to surprise him w a belated mini cake & song :) Waited for the Paddler's people awhile to transport home tgth!

Wednesday - ODAC breakf tgth!!! :) Instructor practical test in the aftnn, didn't fare very well yo. :( Failed a few knots/lashings/firstaid components :\

Rushed off for Cebu meeting! Met Kuya & his sons! Settled some stuff & learnt about our itinerary - we're gonna take horse-carts, eat at a dumpsite, share at a prison, scrub street kids. Super cool :)))) yet super scared!

Thursday - Chatted in sch while waiting for Joaq. But ended up gng Simei jalan-jalan w Joy! Bought an angry bird cover :)

Friday - OG lunch!!! :) Showed Gideon pretty girls hehe. Aft tht went to meet cca mates!!!! BuddyHoagies & Fast&Furious :) Lotsa hot girls/cars in the movie!
Lepak/Bridge/Camwhore till dinner before accompanying Darren to buy his bb cover! Talked a lot on the ahem "10min" ahem busride.

Saturday - Airport w "the whole world" Darren & Xiuyun! Cookies hehehehe yumyum.

Went off in the evening for BS! Kinda funny how our group downsized, leaving only Rebecca & I! Learnt a lot of stuff tho yay :)

Went to snack/shopped a little w Candice!

Met Celestine for like an hour? Home for buffet~

Watched the elections till 2+am omg. Srsly i think TV is for no-lifers but i actually wasted so much of my life on it just to see crazy people screaming here & there & a stone frog announcing the results....

Sunday - Early morning go tend to the MothersDayBakeSale booth! Then 11am service, talked to Dinisha awwww long time no see this girl! Had a Cebu briefing by Jon, then went to Charles house! Lyanna's cheesecake melted in the sun, turning into a red mess HAHA.

For your own safety; please do not leave your belongings unattended.

You'd end up w 838 new photos in your Iphone.

Teadot to chill, then took Andrew's car home :)

I should prolly get to PI/Hwk or sth haha people keep laughing at me because i'm in 501, thanks yo. It's okay even if i'm put in the worst situation on Earth, God will make a way for me. :)

Life has been better these days, feel more like myself! I really ought to stop sleeping in class tho...... & I'm half-awake typing these so forgive me for any grammer or whatever ohmyyyyyyy

Positive

2011-05-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

Blowing bubbles in sch!!!!!!! :)

The Wilfred Smile
I think we were on drugs that night

Fail study day. :( But i didn't have much hwk anyway.

I just realized the amount of people that have a bad first impression of me. & the amount of people who think i'm damn dao.

Funny how others have the complete opposite impression.

The best part is, I'm never what you think. Ok this is so complicating!!!!

You know it's time to move on when they are happy w/o you.

Mt Ophir

2011-05-01T14:20:00.008+08:00

HELLO. :) Back alive from Msia yo! The trip was rather well balanced i'd say. The package was rather pampering but the tough climb up Mount Ophir balanced it off. Super enjoyable & once-in-a-lifetime experience!!!!

1) Nightwalked (More like Blind-Trekking) by the waterfall area!! Saw fireflies omgosh!!

2) 3 Buffet Meals + Lots & lots & lots of chocolate

3) Almost 12 hours of trekking up/down Mt. Ophir, the 6th most difficult mountain in M'sia. It was mad but honestly quite fun, climbing up cliffs and through caves. At some point of time i really thought i'd just slip fall & die but well i'm here typing!!!! On the way down was damn shiok even tho i kept falling but Rhine/Sherman/Weiliang were v entertaining!

So happy before the nightmare started
Sweating like dogs after the trek to the mountain base
Machiam twilight scene!

1000m into the sky!!!!
I almost died climbing this cliff
CheckPoint 7!!!!!! :)
Everyone crashed after the mountain, only Amanda Joaq & I were awake & hyper hehehe

4) Field cooking yay!!!!!
5) Lepak/Crazy/Sneak-out night. Saw shooting stars!!! :)

Games to finish our rations .
Werewolf!
6) Tentmates w Joanna & Xiuyun again! :) HTHT w Xiuyun till late late while Joanna sleeps like a boss. HAHA
7) Talk non-stop bus rides + Ramly stopover!!
Thru this camp, not only did i bond more w my beloved ODACians, i also found out more about myself. Had an awesome time but now it's back to PI & HWk. :(

Got no one to believe in

2011-04-27T20:28:00.003+08:00

Monday - Spent some time w my Chinyue & Celestine before gng to church for my first Cebu meeting! There's alot to be done in preparation for the trip in June!!

Tuesday - Giant w ODAC J2s & Joaq to buy the Ophir food! 349$ worth of maggie/cannedfood/dryrations omgosh la! Kind Chakming paid for our taxi fare so we didn't have to haul all the stuff back :p Spent the rest of the night packing for Ophir!!!

Wednesday - Odac packing dayyy we only collated 10 units not bad not bad! Exco was announced, Weiliang Lumyi Xiuyun Joanna Kaifeng Dawn! Rather relieved i'm not in because i doubt i can take the pressure!! :)

Niceness stems from love, genuinity comes from the heart. Hypocrisy spells on the face.

It's obvious.

Because God is good, Amen :)

2011-04-24T21:49:00.005+08:00

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16

Because Man sinned, we are bound for hell. :( But because Christ died for us, we can go to heaven if we choose to believe in Him because He has already taken the punishment for us! :) And this is the day He rose from the grave. My God loves me very very much & He loves you just the same! :)

Nobody makes me feel the way yall do, so comfortable even tho we don't meet/talk often anymore! I guess this is what years of friendship gives, so sibling-ish!! :) ♥♥

Didn't have time to shop cause it was too late. :( School starts again tmrw, blah!

On a side note, I LOST MY FLOWER PIN I AM SO SAD YO :(

Small girl, Big dreams

2011-04-22T00:10:00.004+08:00

It is foolish to believe that people won't judge you. But i'll face it with a smile. :)

Hello! :) I can't wait for JC to end. Srsly! I wna go travelling yo. Studying doesn't make sense at all hahaha. Don't know where i belong to. :(

It's encouraging to see how all my friends being saved, growing in the Lord. But then it makes me think about how the passion in me has almost sizzled. How God used to be a part of every, anything. The closeness i had. I guess in times like that, i have to keep the end in mind. The vision He has for me i will not forget. & I know no matter how far i may stray, He'll always be right there waiting for me to return! :)

OHOH. Bumped into Justindran outside MJ! Totally forgot him omgosh so terrible of me!!! :( Maybe Alison is right!!!!!! I'm a goldfish i only rmb my friends for 3seconds. :( REALLY MISS NGEEANN BADLY CAN'T STAND HOW PHONY MJ PEOPLE ARE.

Messed up

2011-04-20T23:46:00.001+08:00

Some things, we don't talk about, rather do without, & just hold the smile.

Tomorrow will be a better day. :)

Idle day

2011-04-18T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hi yo! Gave sch a miss tdy hahaha for the first time this year! Really bth alr. :( Got my Ip4 yo! :) Wasted one day away blah so worried now. Feel much better w sufficient rest tho! Bet you missed me hehhehe :)

Just a dream

2011-04-17T13:17:00.004+08:00

Owe a lot of hwk cause i had a busy sat :(

Morning w Belle darling - nas gz last prac before syf! Somebody finally got her belly piercing! V chio mannn!

Aftnn w Celes - mj to collect my shoes ohgosh i actuall left them in my locker :(

Night @church - bsssss!
Hi yo! & so i ran (walked) 10k tdy w my beloved cca! hahah actually it isn't an amazing accomplishment, it's only because it's done by Shuqi that's why !! people just don't link running & me tgth. Nevertheless, really thank God for bringing me thru & sending Chengyee to be w me thruout!! :) I like talking to her yo!

Lunched after, then home to shower before meeting Simin & Zhihao to hwk! :) The other twin continued sleeping haha MeanHao !!!!!! Dinnered w Joaq sis!

Time is never enough

Jitters

2011-04-16T21:03:00.003+08:00

Dear God, please calm my stirring heart rn. I pray that You'll hold me thru tmr's marathon, & remind me that Ure right there w me thruout. I know that I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me! May your blessings & protection be upon me & my cca mates. I'll complete the race tmrw in Your name, Amen!

Passive

2011-04-15T23:33:00.007+08:00

ODAC swimming tdy! Didn't have any allergy #thankGod ttmx man!!! Couldn't swim finish 15laps within timing tho :( Y I SO CUI @ EVERYTHING. I honestly believe all the seniors bitxh abt me all the time cuz i'm so very cui :( But what doesn't kill me makes me stronger, right? :) I'll become zai qi soon ;)

Talked quite abit w everyone tho was feeling rather blah tdy~ :) Still don't know if i wna go for exco ... :\

JC has alot of hypocrites & such, making me feel uneasy all the time. :( Really don't know who's real who's fake where to place my trust. Maybe giving in all the time isn't the best idea, i feel like i'm losing myself too. Plus there's absolutely no time to think so much about all these stufffff :( Feels like everyone is backstabbing/making use of each other all the time... SO SAD OMGOSH WHAT IS THE WORLD BECOMING TO..

KZZ SHUTUP SQ.

Where's my joy? :(

Tear down the walls

2011-04-13T23:04:00.005+08:00

I swear i never felt so terrible about

1) Running/walking/cycling/swimming slowly
2) Poor stamina
3) Low Blood Pressure
4) Allergic to chlorine

before. I am such a problem child :(

5) Not completing hwk
6) Failing tests
7) Being late
8) Regretting my decisions

What's new? I feel like i can break down any moment. Must admit i really ain't coping well in JC :(

But If my God is for me, then who can be against me? Amen.

Time to open up :)

2011-04-12T22:37:00.010+08:00

& it's taking me this long, baby but I figured out

Hello!!!!!! :) I'm muggerQi ! Sleepy sch day, watched the soccer match, 'studied' :((, dinnered! :)

I blew my first bubble yay!!! :) Never thought i'd be saying this but, imma keep my eyes opened wide WIDE and start noticing people because i've been sleepwalking thru term1. Everyone has an eyecandy - something to look forward to in school, but i don't have any :((((((( No wonder everyone is able to stay awake thruout the day LAH!!!! Esp PEARL. Live to look @ guy only. HAHA hi i kno ure reading this pls don't kill me tmrw LY4L ;)

Sick of all the insincere

2011-04-11T00:10:00.005+08:00

SUPER TIRED + NOT SUPPOSED TO BE ONLINE NOW. :( It's realllllll late but urgh whatever!!!!

Last night, my house blacked out @ 2+ am. :( Idk why but i woke up instantaneously, and was super freaked out! Waited 1hour plus in my bed for somebody to realize & fix the thing before i was able to fall back asleep :s Super scary, like your room suddenly only got the tick tock clock sound!!!

School is never productive. Spent the day tying plaits hehehehe so fun! :) Joycelyn plaited my hair!!! :D

Chinyue sister is gonna wait w me every Monday for Celestine yay!!!! :) Was supposed to go running w ODAC but since there weren't any J1s, i didn't go :S Crashed 103's Math consultation! It was madness i wonder how they study with 10 machine guns talking at once. !!!

Ran 2.4 w Celes cuz there's a math test tmrw. Totally see the link right? :) See, JC life is so terrible that even running 2.4 is a form of entertainment. !!!

More & more people r joining our study sessions .... which means productivity tending to negative infinity .. !!!!!

P/S, thanks for all the concern tdy about my swollen eye okay!!!!! Loveyall :)))))

For once i believe that i might just be truly over you.

Ambivert

2011-04-10T20:38:00.005+08:00

The Wilfred face
Tried to hwk tdy w Celes, Leon, Weilun, Wilfred, but fail ttmx. :(

My unread texts reaching 400, from February!!!! :( I should kick this habit ASAP. Friends, please don't give up on me!!!!!!! :(

I think more often than not, people get a wrong impression of me.

Sick & tired

2011-04-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

Feelings may fade, but true love lasts forever. As confused as ever, but as the cliche goes, time will tell - 5 years may be long, but it definitely ain't forever.

Hello! So i spent the day sleeping. Like really the entire day + night :( Was running a slight fever but feel better now! Felt so touched by all the wishes on twitter :')

Just realized life has pretty much been revolving around school, school, school. Barely have time for anything else! :( Neglecting my friends is becoming inevitable.

Thank You for everything
Thank You for loving me
It don't even matter what tomorrow brings.

I'll keep you close to my heart, DaddyGod♥

Magic is lost

2011-04-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

Embarrassing day. :(

ODAC! Had Expedition Planning lecture, then station games! Was quite fun haha the seniors love torturing us man!! ODAC & it's kissing-related games. Ben&Jerry's was the prize!!!!! Did our punishments then PT! 3sets of 400, 800m intervals. I think i did fine leh :( I only failed the very last one. Rahh.

Dear Atlas1 mates waited super long for Joaq & I! Loveyall :))

Had many staring competitions but the most zai one = Constance & Chinyue. Went on until Chinyue teared cause he barely even blinked!!!!

MY TONGUE IS TOO SHORT TO BLOW BUBBLES. :(
Paddler's!!!!!!
:))

LOVE

2011-04-07T22:07:00.004+08:00

Tdy is MJC LOVE day !! Had fun dancing the LOVE hehehehe made me super happy1 pls!!!!!! :))

OHOH Darren Keith Ping got in!!!! Cheeeeers for them happy2 :) I still secretly wish all the ODAC won't get chosen for HC, CAUSE WE'RE HAVING A BRAIN DRAIN HELLO!!!!!!

Showering after PE is nice hehehe Joycelyn has this gross kiwi soap (WITH THE SEEDS) that smells v nice!!! HAPPY3

I love people who give me sweets thruout the day hehehhe HAPPY4

Talking to Baizurah & Constance makes me miss Atlas more than ever :((((( Actually i thought they forgot me alr but they still rmb my name and talked to me heheh HAPPY5

I love staying in sch till it closes w my beloved vain sisters Celes & Chinyue!! And of course Adeline who stays back for me to lie to her HEHE HAPPY6

HAHA THAT WAS DAMN RANDOMZ omg i'm zihighing noww

P/s, i've been smiling to guy B because i thought he's guy A (my friend) THEN I JUST REALIZED YST WHEN CHENGYEE TALKED TO GUY B, THAT HE'S NOT GUY A ...... I THINK GUY B THINKS I LIKE HIM BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SMILING+WAVING TO HIM FOR ONE ENTIRE TERM ALR OH MY GOSH I THOUGHT I COLOUR BLIND CAUSE HIS HAIR COLOUR KEEP CHANGING ONE OHMYYYYYYYYYY

BTW i don't like Friday nights anymore :( Always have to choose where to go. :( Tmrw night it's either ODAC/OG/QSD'sCHALET/BREAKFCLIQUE :((((( Then always end up ODAC drag super long then ........ :( SIGH

Happygirl94

2011-04-06T23:53:00.004+08:00

BOO. :) Sorry ah tdy no picture to post!!!! :(

DAMN HAPPY OMGOSHHHHH Wilfred Weilun Weepin got in HC!!!!! Cheryl Dawn Leon, Atihrah Fabian Frin Joel Raveen Xinhorng, Jeannette, Jabrina also, grats GOSH I SWEAR i'm super happy for yall!!!!!! :) Still don't know some house's results yet tho :( Now, all the best for your interviews yeah!!!! :)

Shouldn't have skipped the HC meeting this morning, heard it was entertaining! :( Besides, i was trying to waste time at home cuz got nothing to do! Blah!!!!!

ODAC was not baddd. I really appreciate people w the patience PLUS understanding to push me along. Thanks a million ok!!! :) As usual, slacked till quite late before gng dinner, for once J1+ J2s! Finally communicating w them, theyall v funny heh!

Anyw, really happy about tdy bcuz i found a soulmate HEHE Odac's Rebecca!!!! This whole year i thought i turned into a horrible person, but she made me realize i'm not yay phew!! :) SO NOW I R HAPPYGIRL94 AGAIN!!!!!! :D :D

P/s, SUPER EXCITED FOR POLY PEEPS !!!!!! HEHEHEHE BET YALL GNA HAVE LOADSA FUN!!!!!!!!!

Bubbly

2011-04-05T23:08:00.004+08:00

HIHIHI. Tmrw is HC nominee day, even tho i dropped out of HC alr but i'm super excited for my peeps!!!!!!!!! :D Still semi-wish i was still in atlas but OHWELL. Everything's in God's hands!!!! :)

Spent both nights dating Adeline Lee & Celestine Tang - our love is going strong ^_^

BTW, FINALLY FIGURED HOW TO USE MSN HAHAHA. I feel so isolated from the world after my com spoilt for a 1-2 months. :( ADD ME MSN IF YOU HAVEN'T OKAY sq994@hotmail.com WEBCAM WITH ME YAY !!!!!
Clement!!!!!Look at her chocolates lah!

I don't like self-centered people who only know how to make use of people. :(

P/s I have new sisters HEHE ;)

Time to change

2011-04-03T20:27:00.004+08:00

Overslept church tdy!!! :( Disappointed in myself bcuz i really wanted to go! :(

ODAC, Velocity@Novena to collect our race packs, then shop/pig/hwk/talk!

This entire year i've been feeling kinda weird, like there's sth wrong w me but i simply couldn't pinpoint it. I guess it's prolly because i've been holding on to many things, like the disappointment over HouseComm & the change in class.

“If we spend our time with regrets over yesterday, and worries over what might happen tomorrow, we have no today in which to live.”

I've forgotten what it's like to be happy all the time, counting all my blessings & being thankful to God for every, anything. It's like JC morphed me into a different person :( But i promise i'll UNDO.

Empty me of me

2011-04-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO. Sorry i've been super busy, no time to update :(((

School.....

THURSDAY, studied w Celes Chinyue Joaq my pretty girls ^_^ for like a while, then went for OG dinner :D :D :D Alot of 103/random people also! Laughed so muchhhhhhh i miss them ttmx :(

FRIDAY, APRILSFOOL. Had so much fun hahaha my BIRTHDAYYYYYYYY :) kept tricking people also hehehe.

ODAC!! Built Catapult/Leapoffaith! Took like 6hours to build, got alot of rope burns but was funnnnnnn :) I think i suck @ tying knots :S SUBWAY :) Then BK to lepak w J2s until quite late~

Michael did me this damn cool thingy, which was my name!!
SATURDAY, Michael's house w Celes Joaq Liying! His mom made sushi yumyum & had other good food hehehe. Simei to study w Chinyue! He bought this super big cup of starbucks that he couldn't finish, super funny! 18chefs then walked back tamp~ After that i still went running, so proud of myself :D

Enchanted

2011-03-30T20:29:00.003+08:00

Really short day tdy, only 4 periods! Had some event in the morning, i planned to oversleep & go late, but end up i met Albee Jeannette & Xiuyun outside the MRT - they walked out of sch cuz it was too boring. So end up i ponned the whole thing, 4 of us went for breakf :))))) KFC porridge! Long time never eat hehehe yumyum

The stitch paw super cute right!!
I just realized my cheek damn nice to pinch sia!
ODAC tdy!! All we did was tie knotzz. Pretty boring. :( Btw, MJ soccer really damn zai \m/ Boys 11-0, Girls 3-0. :D

Eh anyw i haven't post any Xblaze picts right!!!!
Pulau Ubin! So pretty man first time i go to this part of ubin!
Highest point in ubin :)
Walking back to PasirRis after camp! See our super gigantic bags

MISS CAMP AWWWWW :( Gng Ophir in April tho!!! Zhisheng got malaria last year when he went, should i take the vaccination?? :(

Hopeful

2011-03-29T21:36:00.004+08:00

Hellllo :) My blog views r dwindling, isit bcuz my life is getting more & more boring?! :( I miss the life where sth exciting happens everyday, instead of all the blahblah stuff. Like, who cares mannnnnnn. !

Had POD Band practise yst, was really tough, played till my fingers were all sore :\ Wasn't a good experience but the people are all so nice!

Met Yonghao tdy! Feasted like pigs hehhhhh happygirl_994!
Once upon a time i didn't think anyone would judge me! But now i'm more self-conscious awwwww so sadded right. So i'll only post certain picts here hehhhhh :)

BTW, i have muscles now omgosh i dont know where they came from!!!!

Earth Hour

2011-03-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm so tired lahhh. I'm still coughing bcuz i've been eating tidbits despite my throat! It sucks cuz i can't sing rn. :(

Yst was a blast!!! ODAC training was to KBOX. HOW COOL IS THAT. 2-7pm of pool/wii/kbox! ;) All of us went crazy w the song "Fuck You" .... SO AWESOME PLS HAHAHA. Had dinner @ JustAcia, went Fish&Co to find the J2s, PRP to nightwalk, then lepak!!! :)

I have the awesomest cca on Earth!

Was supposed to hwk/run tdy. But obviously that didn't work out (as usual). Sq has zero selfcontrol. :(

Church!! Qiyang talked about hope tdy. It spoke to me bcuz i think i've lost that joy/hope in my life! But i shall ignite it again. :)

Rushed off just in time to miss the bus..

Scv 10 NextBus 48min SubBus No Prediction

I almost fainted. Thankfully Philbert was there too, reminded me that i could take 14 instead!! But when i reached the next bus stop.......

Scv 32 NextBus 32min Subbus 46min

(20 min later)

Free update: Scv 32 NextBust 21min (Bus delayed along the way. Sorry to keep you waiting.)

If it wasn't so dark i would have walked & reached long long ago lah :( I swear i've never waited so long for a bus in my life before. Even the transfer fare no more! Can you imagine how long i waited........

Anyw finally reached Kemb!!!!! :) BBQ, MacKenny's birthday! Miss all of them srsly haha all of them have pretty girlfriends now! :)

Wish i didn't have a curfew! :(

FML

2011-03-24T22:35:00.003+08:00

Times like this i just wna sit down and cry.

Gloomy March

2011-03-24T19:10:00.005+08:00

THIS IS SRSLY THE MOST SUAY MONTH OF MY LIFE :( Other than horrible things happening to me everyday, a few major bad things happened also. Can't wait for April to come ........

Life has been pretty mundane. Other than normal sch, Mond - Celes Joaq, Tues - JoelO, Weds - Pearl/Founders Day!

Strawberry straw!!!!!!!
Finally started late on Weds .. which meant .......... SWING! :))
Liqing♥ has a goldfish on her phone HAHA
Miss yall so much srsly :'(

Missed this swing!

Term1 tests actually not so bad cuz in JC, 40/100 is a pass alr! And all the tests barely anyone passed so i think i'm around the average? :\ Failed both my arts paper, math no test! :\ In class, Econs lowest Gp highest Chem 10th Geog somewhere in the middle. Definitely need to buck uppppppp but i really can't absorb anything in lectures. :(

Tmrw's Friday, Friday ~

Whirlwind

2011-03-21T22:30:00.004+08:00

Time has been such a blur i really don't know what i've been doing with my life. From tdy onwards i shall stop cruising thru life okay!! Wish the holidays lasted a lil' longer tho..

"There is little that can withstand a man who can conquer himself."
Self-control, girl. I need to overcome myself.

Really should be dng my holiday hwk now, but ahhhhhh. I shall be a good girl from rn.

Tata! :)

JC girl

2011-03-20T20:36:00.004+08:00

SUPSUPS. Super lazy day, dreading tmrw.. :(
Played w Chubby tdy! Took pictures of him for the first time hahha so adorable right! Toy poodle really machiam toy!
Ken's chalet! Wasn't as awkward as i thought it would be cause i haven't seen everyone for like forever. Happy to see my Qsd♥!!!! :D Cheryl Kj Sam too! Didn't stay until very late, cabbed yay! :)

I'm always the JC girl wherever i go! :\ Makes me wonder how everyone else can stay friends with me! Come to think of it, the number of good friends i have that came JC can be counted with one hand! I'm definitely gonna lose some loved ones but i guess those who stay thruout this 2years despite our very different routes are those who really care! Shuqi, just hold on & you'll pull thru, JY! :)

I threw all of your stuff away, and i cleared you out of my head, and i tore you out of my heart. So how did you get here under my skin? Swore that I'd never let you back in. Should've known better than trying to let you go, cause here we go, go, go again. Hard as i try i know i can't quit, something about you is so addictive. We're falling together, you'd think that by now i'd now cause here we go go here we go again

Here we go again

2011-03-19T22:35:00.008+08:00

HIE. :D I'm so tired gosh but yay hi whoever's reading this! So cool i love you man, care to read about me :') LOL KWTV I SOUND SO GAY HAHAHAHAH.

YSTTTTT. Class outing! But end up quite pathetic but it's okay PEARLLLLLLLLLY. :D
I think i really no fate with people. :( Elly was working at the bike shop that we were supposed to rent bikes from! But my cg decided to rent from the other one ~~ Anyw i brought my own blades!!! :)
I miss my pink blades!!
SWINGSWING LIKE FINALLY!!! I was so happy srsly i kept smiling :p But Celes not here awhhhhhhawaw :(

Oh then more people joined for lunch! :D
HappyBirthday Pow :D
Fabian so happy with his Jansport!!! :)
POD BBQ :D Alot of people! Had mass games & a bbq competition, my group won yay!!!!! :) Quite fun hehh met Emeline!!! Haven't seen each other in 5years gosh so cool :D

This thing v cosy Pearl & I laid on it for the whole night! But beside us had couple making out so it was kinda awkward :S

Anyw, church tdy!! Super sad cuz i had so much to say yet i'm mute.. :( The most ironic part was that when i signalled that i had no voice, people replied "Oh okay don't talk!!!! ... How you lose your voice??" !!!!! Had so much tidbits @ BS but i couldn't eat so sad so sad sooooooo sad i wna eat cookies :(

Oh, I finally returned Elnaam his thumbdrive :D But forgot Reb's textbook, !!!! :(

ANDANDAND, CALLY BAOBEI IS BACK TO SG FOR A HOLIDAY WHEEEEEEEE :)

WELCOME BACK :D

900th post ^_^

2011-03-17T23:59:00.005+08:00

YOYOYO. I LOST MY VOICE TDY...... :( SO DAMN SAD OMG I STILL HAVE HALF THE HOLIDAYS TO GO. AND I CAN'T MAKE ANY NOISE???????????? :'(

SPANGZTOSA tdy :D Was so fun lah i missed everyone so much i couldn't stop talkingggggggg. Kept screaming also!! Ate all the junk even tho i was alr falling sick :( So i guess i deserve this. ARGHHHHhh. Luge & Sky ride was super fun!!! Oh Wilfred was like a few metres away from me but we didn't meet AWH SO SAD NO FATE.

JlnKayu to meet S501! Chi prog on prata. We got chased away by one shop :( "If you want you must make appointment" .. LOL! But the other shop people damn nice. :D "1 hour 50$ okay!" But all the stuff super exxxx my gosh.

Finally satisfied my prata craving!!! :D

Can't believe i did this for CHINESE. But it was yummy fun :D

I miss being able to talk. :(

Queasy

2011-03-16T10:09:00.003+08:00

Spent yst w Celes!! Was cool cuz the entire place was A1 people :D Hwked! Only managed to finish 4chem qns. :(

Back to NAS w Belle darling!!!!!!!! :) Just in time to see the dismissal. :( Wanted to hear them play! Founder's day rehearsal. It's okay heheh i can see them on the actual day cuz i got prize to take :p This was Spangz's dream... to all be invited for Founder's Day. :(

Lunched w Belle Gerallyn & Liqing! Then Swensens yay! YAYyyyy :D Missed you girls so much srsly!

Belle had nothing to do before her work so i pei-ed her! Was supposed to go meet POD, sorry!!!!! :( Decided to make sth to eat!

Should have made jelly instead cuz this thingy is like done in 10min. Left w nothing to do again. :(

Went to meet Terence! Yay he helped me to install Microsoft, thanks ahhhhh :D Hwked! It's like neverending one pls the hwk! :(

Spent like the entire night spamming FB/MSN HAHAHAH AWESOME FUN

I think i wna marry you~

2011-03-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

ODAC!! :D Somehow, tent-washing was actually damn fun... I love my cca mates :)) Sorry odacians okay :( I'm like always making yall get punishments. Feel so guilty lah, i'll try my best from now on!!!!!

Haven't been quite myself lately.. My attitude kinda svcks!

Anyw, tried to hwk after odac w Amanda & Joaq! Super fail i ended up sleeping cuz it was too cold. Celes joined us after her dance! Amanda left then the three of us went to kup Paddler's food :D :D :D Just nice they had 3 packs of extra food hehehe. Laughed so much there lah gosh all of them r so noisy it's always 10 people talking at once. They should have been in odac awhh :(

We refused to leave sch even after all the lights were out :D Sch is so comfy hehhhh.

On the downside, didn't join breakf clique for movie :( Was too rush! So sadddd gahhhhhh misssss themmmmmmmm :(

Busy bee

2011-03-13T20:31:00.006+08:00

WASSSSSSSSSUP :) Honestly time has been zoomzoom-ing like a rocket, so much so that i have no idea what i've been dng for the past 2.5 weeks since i blogged. Bet you missed me right? :)

Random moments i enjoyed!!!! :D
Pretty pretty please.
MJC has damn beautiful guys.
ODAC group 4/5 :)
Every single one of my 738 (Estalla's missing!) is still the same old bitxh :)
Oh here's my cute CG! :)
(W)! The friend i'll never ever stop loving :D

Anyw, have been an UBIN GIRL for the past few days! Carried this 10kg backpack around .. Slept in the forest alone in a basha (GOOGLE THIS) which is a super traumatic experience :'( The ODAC seniors spammed us with ghost stories, before sending us on a few km walk ALONE@NIGHT with no flashlight in ubin to our campsite. How to sleep when 3am suddenly got monk chanting from the nearby temple and malay girl singing ...... Can you imagine the state i was in? :S

The next day, spent 6hours WALKING around the entire ubin for our station games. Followed by cycling/climbing to all the tourist points! Had to cook our own dinners, no instant products allowed.. Thankfully by some miracle ours was super yummy :) The rest of the meals were dry rations :( Got to sleep in a tent the 2nd night, but thanks to the thunderstorm .. i would think i was sleeping in a swimming pool instead. Unpitched our tent in the rain then it's back to SG! YAY?? No..

WALKED back to school from the ferry terminal! Then had to do our units after that. Okay la actually idk why but i still remained super energetic!!!!!

Yes i almost died thru this camp but i'm proud to say I MADE IT THRU EVERYTHING AND I CAME OUT STRONGER! :) Plus, despite all the toughness, enjoyed every single bit of the camp was really enjoyable ... ! :)

P/s, finally got my new laptop, which is humongous + kinda ex = guilty + regret. I think i still prefer netbooks........

I wish for more mmr space

2011-02-23T22:40:00.003+08:00

Friends r like new friends everytime i see them... I wish people wouldn't ask 'D'you remb me?' Cuz honestly it'd take me a few more months to rmb everybody's names/faces....

Life has been pretty mundane yet freaking busy. I have too many commitments .. Srsly sq, you need to learn to say no.

Had a guitar session w Alison Jingrui Joel & Keith!! Airport = flooded by MJ + NAS.

Anticipating ODAC! Yet dreading the PT....

Yet my heart is never hardened

2011-02-20T00:27:00.001+08:00

They say secondary school days r the best you will ever have in life. Everything just goes down from there.

I think i'm damn naïve. People r just plain selfish and they don't gafd. When will i learn not to be so trusting, so ready to be taken advantage of. Giving everybody everything only to find that ure only being made used of. Never believing in gossip about someone, standing up for people who turns around and attacks you. Who in this world still seeks the good of others? It's all a big fat lie.

Feeling so stupid, discovering the ugly truth about the world only now. One moment they are your 'friends', another they're not. 17 years to realize that nobody, nobody can ever be relied on, no matter what you think, feel, believe, 'know'.

I doubt empathy, guilt & whatnot still exists. Everything is just a facade. Do not be taken in, they feed on your misery.

V'day 2011 :)

2011-02-14T23:10:00.003+08:00

Spent my weekend @ church, Celestine, Aida & Shahidah! :)

Was such an awesome/chocolatey day!!!!!!!! :') I think all the MJ people damn nice la zomg hehehe :) Gave cheesecakes, cornflakey & cards! Celest & I gave balloons to Michael & Joaquin .. on the account that they r so gay hehehe.

Everyone seems extra nice tdy ......... :D